it sounds like something that Marty and Doc would be doing to the DeLorean before heading back to the future. It won’t mean much to the general public. But it does to me, and to people like me.
A Mercury Retrograde is effectively when the planet Mars appears to slow down, stop, change direction, then move forward in its orbit again. This phenomenon is called a Mercury Retrograde and it wreaks havoc on us poor inhabitants of Earth. There are 3 MR’s a year, and we are in the middle of one right now. It’s an 8 week cycle which should complete on the 3rd March, with most of the crazy life changing stuff ending earlier on the 11th February.
During this time there are 3 things that shouldn’t be done:
2. Be near electricity
3. Get married
I’ve already broken 2 of those rules…and no, I haven’t remarried! I’m posting a URL to a MR article so you can read more about this in your own time.
Are you confused? And are you asking yourself the question, what on earth is she talking about? Well, I’m talking about it because its affecting me. It’s current for me. Because my intuition and guidance have been affected by it, its been a little…impaired. So while I can usually deal with flights and crowds by using the techniques I’ve learned, with this Mercury Retrograde in action, I’ve found it about 10 times harder to ground, to heal and to connect with people. And this is part of the reason why I’m returning to Bali very soon! The high vibration of Ubud is what I need during this period.
Being Empathic and a HSP (Highly Sensitive Person)
I’ve mentioned my psychic and empathetic abilities in previous blogs. Perhaps what I haven’t clarified is that I’m still on a journey to fulfilling these gifts to their potential. Everyday it feels like I’m being reborn, learning more about spirit, and how to integrate that with my journey to self.
Clairsentience is my strongest sense. Clairsentience is the ability to feel. This is a necessary gift for an Empath. That is, I feel more than most. I’m sensitive to everyone. As soon as someone tells me their story, I get them. As soon as I’ve connected with them personally, I see who they are, what their strengths and weaknesses are, where their health issues are. I feel everything. This is a curse at times. But overall an amazing gift that I’m so thankful for if it helps me to help my community.
But my other senses have started to join the party. I’m currently working on Clairaudience. I’m very sensitive to noise. I’m sensitive to lyrics in music, and to voice guided meditations. So now I listen to nature and soulful soundtracks.
I’m starting to see future visions (Clairvoyance) when I meditate.
My claircognizance (knowing) is always there in the background. Quite often I know stuff without knowing why I know stuff. This is frustrating sometimes because I’ll say something then I can’t substantiate it. I have to trust that I know then research to substantiate.
Who am I again? Part II
The title of my blog on the 14 January I asked the question, ‘Who am I again?‘ It was a guide to finding your true love. In fact, the question of who I am is a question I face daily. And yes its all in the name of finding my true love. But that true love is not another person, its a love for myself. Its a journey of self discovery to myself. Let me expand on that.
Quite often when I’m chatting to someone and I’m explaining my blogs to them, I struggle with explaining what this blog is all about. Generally I describe it as a blog of my spiritual journey over the last year. But in fact, its a journey to self, a journey of self discovery. It may appear strange to some to not know yourself. Because actually, we all see each other very clearly. Which brings me to my next point – why don’t we talk about this stuff more often?
The 3 C’s
Connection, Communication, Community
Conflict and how it relates to the 3 C’s
We are one.
So how can there be war, politics and religion? If we are one, then surely we are one mind and therefore all connected to source. The answer to this is very simple. We are not all conscious…yet….
The 3 C’s to me are the answer to creating mass consciousness, and ultimately what many people call, enlightenment or Nirvana or Kundalini. Whatever you may call it, its the same thing.
Do you know we’re all connected? When I ask people to connect, whether it be to their Higher Self, to other people or to nature, what I’m asking them to do is to REconnect. What I mean by this is, we are already connected, but we’ve forgotten how to access it.
It seems communication in the true sense of the word has been forgotten. Every time you send a message on Facebook, a text on Whatsapp or email, rather than picking up the phone or seeing someone in person, you are relegating ‘real’ communication into a past concept….something that used to be done. The art of conversation is one quickly being lost in this age of digital media. Let me ask you 3 questions:
1. When was the last time you sat down with someone and chatted on a meaningful topic, far from the distractions of everyday life?
2. When was the last time you fixed a broken relationship?
3. When was the last time you felt you ‘truly connected‘ with someone and took your relationship to a new level?
My number one desire is Community. Now the problem is that I have Community, but its all over the place. Lots of little Community’s. My banker brain, wanted to integrate all of these Community’s…for convenience. But I’ve come to realise that I thrive on the constant stimulation that each one of my groups provide. But the most important Community to me, is the audience to this blog. Because when I sit down to write for you, I’m at that place of ultimate happiness. I can access heartspace. I’m the BVOM (Best Version of Me).
Can I be cheeky and ask you a favour?
If this blog resonates for you. If you feel guided to. Then can I ask you to ‘follow’ my blog, so you get regular updates directly to your email address.
Please share it with your friends and family. Ultimately, if it resonates with you, discussing it is the ultimate sharing. Remember – Sharing is Caring!!
And in the true spirit of the 3C’s, please, if you’d like to discuss this more, please comment on the blogs, or send me a private message. There are 2 ways to connect with me:
1. Join my Facebook page
2. Join my closed group, Ponicorn Peeps
My favourite tunes today:
This was inspired by my sister, a true definition of a Leo – generous, big hearted, bright, warm and shiny! She loves Meghan Trainor because everytime she hears it she wants to have fun. She wants to dance. Her and her 2 year old son like to get down and boogie to this tune. Really listen to the words in this song. “I know you lie, your lips are moving”. What does that mean to you? For me, so many people talk, but they don’t believe what they’re saying. They don’t take action on what they want and who they are. It’s the old adage, actions speak louder than words!
I’ve created a new closed group with which to share my Ponicorn blogs. This group is a community page for you to share your own insights and journey and make magical connections..share the love…You are free to invite people to the page once you’re a member.
If you’re so called, I invite you to join it at :
The name of the group is Ponicorn Peeps.
Or, if you’re time and technology challenged, then please comment on this blog or contact me to invite you to the page.
The journey to love is a tricky one.
Most of us are searching for our soul mate – that one true love that can fulfil that part of us that yearns to be held, to be loved unconditionally. So we’re never alone.
Sometimes that journey can become desperate. We grasp at straws, because we’re impatient to make it happen. In the course of grasping, we become dislocated from ourselves…..we forget our truth. We forget the essence of being. We forget to live.
What happened to that child that ran barefoot on the grass and swam for hours until her fingers and toes were wrinkly. When and where were we taught that there was no place for fun and silliness and dancing? Who taught us that we had to grow up and face responsibilities?
I didn’t know much about love when I met my late husband. I wasn’t taught how to do the love thing when I grew up. I was taught to function, to survive. I’m forever grateful to the powers that be for bringing Scotty to me. How lucky was I, in my lifetime, to have met someone who could teach me how to give and receive love so unconditionally, so beautifully? Not everyone is this lucky.
But then he was taken from me, suddenly, traumatically. The darkest day of my life.
It wasn’t until much later in my journey, I realised I’d made a series of critical mistakes….All of these added up to one awful truth…
…..I’d relied on him to give me unconditional love. Instead of generating my own, I’d survived on what he gave me.
My world had been shattered because he was gone. No love. No light. I felt alone. I couldn’t see a future.
Little did I know that I was on two very separate journeys. I had not just lost him. I had lost myself. I grieved him until the 20th August 2014. I grieved for 9 months. On the 20th August, that stopped. It stopped when I decided to take my life back into my own hands. When I decided to love myself. To respect myself. To heal myself.
And I thought that I was ok…….But I wasn’t…..I wasn’t ok…..
Instead, the bigger journey began. The journey of rebuilding myself. Grieving for lost years. Grieving for lost opportunities. Grieving for something that I’ve understood all this time, but didn’t want to accept – that I was a shadow of that lost child……..I didn’t love myself. I didn’t know myself. I had killed myself off…a long time before he passed away. And now I had to deal with the fact that I didn’t have anything. I was some shell of a person that i didn’t recognise …or like.
The truth will set you free
And now I’m at the pinnacle of my journey of self realisation. I know myself. I acknowledge myself. And I’m ok with it. I forgive my past. My life starts today. i know that empowerment can only be generated from knowing yourself…the good, the bad..the ugly. Facing the truth and being ok with it.
I can only say thank you to my audience – to my loyal followers for being my sounding board on this journey..for being the community that has inspired me to continue on through rough times, to find the truth.
A big thank you to my special healing crew – Michael and Ma for being my lighthouse in stormy seas.
And now I’m ready to share with you, all of my secrets, to create safe haven for you to journey there too. I invite you to join my community…on the path to self love and ultimately…more happiness than you can imagine.
You’ll have to be brave. There will be tears. There will be anguish. Sometimes you’ll lose hope.
But I’m here for you, to light the way. My gift to you today, is to tell you a little secret. Your twin flame, that ultimate soul mate, is waiting for you. When you’ve conquered your darkest fears. When you’ve unlocked your heart. They will appear. I promise. But if you thought that finding this mystical other half of yourself was the pinnacle…..you would be so wrong. Because the one true love, that you can’t do without, is YOU!
Fall in love with yourself and you’ll never be alone.
Namaste – We are all one.
Much love from the Ponicorn xxx
Be inspired by this very special song, that was gifted to me…that I’m now gifting to all of you. I send this song out with an intention that everyone in the world that is searching for themselves, their true love, feels acknowledged by me today, that they receive my unconditional love and acceptance, that they’re inspired by Daylight to take the next step in their journey.
Today, in this moment, as I lie like a Queen, swathed in blankets, surrounded by cushions, high up on a hill, overlooking the Kingdom of Wanganui, as the sun rises….. its brilliance emerging from the clouds……altar burning bright….
……..the anticipation of the sun’s warm rays, the clarity of mind, all culminate in powerful desires…powerful inspiration….
My body has reached a moment of perfect homeostasis, of peace..a perfect moment that can only be achieved through months of preparation….for some people. .years…
In this moment. ….I am peace…I am inspiration…I am Devine presence.
And because I’ve given a gift to myself of the perfect sunrise, I’ve been rewarded with the inspiration and clarity of mind to share with you my Top 10 tips for Consciousness in 2015 – Ultimate tips for Spirit and Ultimate freedom. You don’t have to be spiritually inclined to receive benefits from following this guideline. .you just have to be searching for something. ..maybe you don’t know what that something is…but you probably feel like something is missing from you right now..what part of you that is..you’re not sure of…actually I’m telling you that its your Soul, your Higher Self..that Wisdom that is your Intuition, that Voice that is your Guidance, that Feeling that is Love, Forgiveness. …
Ultimately…..the exquisite culmination of Mastery in Consciousness is FREEDOM!!!!!! (Ponicorn promise!)
.. this feels right. ..this feels good. .you can’t deny it..despite not understanding why…..
My plea to you is…follow the breadcrumbs. …don’t fight the desire to take action. Start by getting comfortable with that nagging seed of inspiration, that exciting pearl that ignites your passion and makes you silly and lightheaded with the thought of pursuing it….
1. Write it down. ..journel…get clear on your intention
2. Once clear. ..Affirm it..everyday
3. When opportunities..no matter how small..present themselves. .grab them with both hands and don’t let go!
4. Follow the top 10 list below with faith, integrity and purpose
…what’s there to lose…except Yourself..
The following list will be the basis for my next 10 blogs in a spiritual context. ..because there’s just so much to say to expand right here. If you have any desperate questions that need answering RIGHT NOW…then flick me a comment or a personal message through Lotus in lucuna.
The purpose of this blog is to set you up with a Spirit/Freedom guide to action that will set you up and support you through 2015 to become Conscious. ..to become the BVOM (Best Version of Me).
There is no particular order..though meditation ALWAYS comes first and is the SINGLE most empowering practice you can invest in.
4. The breath
5. Pure body
8. Vibe Tribe
You’re not alone. You’re officially a part of my Vibe Tribe! You’re supported by me. You’re supported by this Community. They are your Vibe Tribe. I invite you to feel the feeling of inclusivesness…of belonging… with this intention I’m sending out to you.
Everything is awesome when you’re part of a team!
In the Spirit of inclusiveness. .I’m sending you this VERY inspirational song from the Lego movie…
Happy New Year’s to you all 🙂
Woohoo 2015!! I can’t tell you how excited I am that it’s finally arrived!!
I’m in beautiful Wanganui appreciating the sunshine after a night of rain and wind.
To be honest, I’m not sure what happened last night. But it was fun….
Thank you..from the bottom of my heart!
I’d like to say a big thank you to you all for your loyal support over 2014. I’ve received some statistics from WordPress. My most popular blog was “On that day – 23 Nov 2014”. It was viewed 2,100 times in a 2 1/2 month period. Thanks everyone!! I’m pretty happy about that. I had readers from 25 countries. Wow! – blown away by all the support out there – feeling very humbled.
Gratitude & Affirmations
We spent a lot of time last night chatting about Gratitude and Affirmations.
I want to share mine with you:
What I was grateful for in 2014
An awakening consciousness
Having the love of the most beautiful man for too short a time
Best friends and how our relationships have deepened
My family for challenging me, teaching me acceptance and patience, being there through thick and thin
My amazing group of healers for making me whole again
Chaos – it precipitated change
BVOM (Best Version of Me) being unveiled
The Universe – for giving me the tools to support others
Always be Present
Be non-confrontational. Assist only when asked
Have no regrets
Enable my tribe. Arm them with tools
There is no fate but what you make
(tx for this one Ma…quote from the terminator..)
Embody self love
Be mindful of peoples feeling and the current stage of their journey
Put myself first
I choose love. I am love. Love is the only Truth
This year, my very talented sister in law has made Gratitude jars for the whole family. How does this work? During the year, drop in bits of paper with amazing things that have happened and then be astounded with them when you read them on NYE 2015.
Gratitude jars are a good way of managing your negative Self Talk. Don’t forget to ask for what you want, and to affirm it everyday!
Be mindful of your words – They shape your future.
Everybody’s changing and I don’t feel the same
There are some changes afoot! I’ve created a new facebook page to post my blogs to, and I’ll be introducing a shiny new health and nutrition blog! I’d love for you to be a part of it. Please like my page (if you feel guided to) at the following link:
Hot new theme song
Information on the Year of the Sheep
2015 Year of the Wood Sheep, Goat, Ram
1907, 1919, 1931, 1943, 1955,
1967, 1979, 1991, 2003, 2015,
2027, 2039, 2051, 2063, 2075
It is a common mistake to use Chinese Lunar New Year as the cutoff date for Chinese Zodiacs. The cutoff date is in early February.
Gentle, elegant, smart, assertive, artistic, creative, curious, shy, determined, and compassionate. Can be indecisive, pessimistic or moody. Tend to run away from problem instead of facing and fixing it.
Compatibility for Relationship or Business Partnership
Most Compatible With
Horse – Sheep can always rely on Horse’s caring and trust.
Pig – will be a great complement to Sheep.
Rabbit – will appreciate and adore Sheep’s talents very much.
Most Incompatible With
Dog – Sheep and Dog will constantly blame each other.
Ox – cannot appreciate Sheep’s strength or put up with its weakness.
Rat – Rat’s ambitious nature does not mix well with Sheep’s passive nature.
Based on the forecasted astrological events of the period, the 2015 horoscope and the Year of the Wood Goat promises much more favorable times as compared to the previous year. Many astrologists conclude from the conditions of 2015 that the processes that have been unfolding and spreading chaos for the past few years are finally wrapping up; both political and economic situations in the world are starting to stabilize. Many people’s quality of life is getting higher and the crisis that has been tormenting many counties for the past several years is finally promising to be over. In other words, theyear of 2015 is a crucial one! In 2015, which is according to the Oriental calendar is a year of the Ram (also year of the Sheep or Goat), one epoch is coming to replace another and the whole mankind have once again high hopes for the future. Even though we have always been hopeful and will continue to be such, this time the whole humanity do have a feasible chance to change the world for the better! It goes without saying, one would hope we would truly be deserving of the positive changes and we would be allowed to create the small paradise on earth that we dream of. It must be said once again that there has never been this many signs and favorable planetary aspects confirming the positive nature of the upcoming changes – we simply can’t ignore these signs!
The Chinese horoscope for the year of the Ram can also provide confirmation of the favorable changes in the upcoming year. 2015 will start on February 19 and end on February 7, 2016. The first thing that stands out in many orientalhoroscopes for 2015 is the newly gained faith in a stable economic growth. In the Chinese traditional astrology 2015 as the year of Yui Wei or the 32nd year of the Green Wooden Ram (also Sheep or Goat) is allegorically represented as the period of a passing summer – the period of prosperity and wellbeing. Quite often one can come across the following wording: “The creative side of the Wooden Ram; its diligence applied to hard work ensures prosperity”… Let’s agree words like these don’t leave any room for doubt when it comes to the future wellbeing.
Western astrologists in their turn confirm the positive nature of 2015 by tracking positive signs of the planets’ changing aspects and their position relative to each other. Various zodiac horoscopes for 2015 highlight the overall tendency toward stabilization and general improvement; this will be aided by several astrological factors at the same time.
First, Saturn’s transition into the Zodiac sign of Sagittarius at the very end of 2014 will come into play. As early as January of 2015 all people on the planet will be able to tell the difference. Many political problems and economic issues will be viewed differently. Educational matters will move to the front seat and the main focus will be set on post-graduate education. All year long we may expect new legislative regulations which will allow for structural innovations in educational establishments as well as “order” in this branch of educational affairs. Apart from education, changes will also be introduced to the relations between countries; some of them will reach an agreement on visa-free entry and others, on the contrary, will close their borders. It should be noted, though, that this change will only be vocalized in 2015, and the main events will unfold in the following years.
Second, the tension between Pluto and Uranus that has been there since June of 2012 will finally ease up. This will bring many conflicts that have been persisting from 2012 to 2014 to an end. Surely, we can’t expect to know the winners and losers in this “war” since the underlying reason of all the outrages in the world has been of political nature. However, we can safely say that many processes that affected Europe, Ukraine, Egypt, Syria and a number of African countries will make it impossible for them to go back to their old system and maintain their political course. Let’s hope the changes in the above-mentioned countries will be more of a positive nature. The end of tension between the planets will mark the end of the whole epoch. Starting with 2015 most of the countries will be living in the post-industrial society. It should be noted that the innovations presented to us in 2015 can transform our life similar to the invention of the Internet or cell phones. The progress in the field of high technologies will make it possible to influence politics and this must be one of the crucial factors in the future formation of our society.
Third, in the first half of 2015 there will be a harmonious aspect between Jupiter and Uranus. This can have an unexpected effect on the development of the Internet technologies and wireless connections as well as those innovations that will only be presented to the key players of the high tech market. Jupiter is the planet of expansion and due to its influence many will notice that technologies have become accessible and available to practically everybody. Also, in 2015 the mankind may make some significant progress in space industry; for example, in the first half of 2015 there may be some “news” from the spacecraft sent to outer space for exploration and research. Received data can fundamentally change our interpretation of how the universe works, how life on earth came to be and whether there’s life on other planets.
Fourthly, in August of 2015 we will witness Jupiter’s transition into the Zodiac sign of Virgo. This will first and foremost positively affect the economic growth; the economics will rapidly stabilize and the markets will be quickly recovering from the losses suffered in the previous years. Another good promise of 2015 is the overall heightened attention to ecological issues, environmental protection, healthy eating habits and healthy life style. People’s health will become the focus. We can expect large-scale measures taken to improve health of entire nations. Unconventional medicine and the spheres associated with it will be of special importance.
Overall, it can be said that in the first half of 2015 the processes that have been in place for the past years will be over and in the second half of 2015 both political and economic situation in the world will be void of turmoil and conflicts. Closer to the summer months, when positive events will start overshadowing negatives ones, people of many countries will finally be able to sigh with relief and restore their faith in the future.
It is hard to report on 2015 in detail, but one thing is for sure: the events that 2015 has in store will prove unforgettable! Unbelievable striking events are ahead – we just need to be patient enough to wait for them to happen…
I know you’re thinking, really?, so soon, I haven’t fully taken in the last confrontation?
I’ve received a number of interesting messages leading up to the end of the year. They have a similar theme. I’m at a crossroads. I’m unhappy. I’ve been unhappy for awhile. But I’ve only just realised there’s a better existence for me than the one I have. ..but I’m so stuck. I have no room to move. ..I have a career, a mortgage, a family to support. Maybe I’m just scared. I’m so scared that I can’t even move…..or breathe.
Let me put those feelings of anxiety into context for you. …
I also felt exactly like you did. .earlier in the year for many months…the feeling started as a small uncomfortable feeling but quickly escalated over time to be a heavy feeling on my chest like a huge concrete block was sitting on it and I was suffocating. Alongside that I had terrible brain busy-ness and i couldn’t find clarity or context. I was stuck.
I needed help. I reached out to Ma and she put me in touch with my now mentor, psychic and very good friend Jehanne Thomas. One 1 hour session with Jehanne on a Saturday and on the following Monday..I resigned from my job. I didn’t have all the answers. I didn’t have a plan. But I had the next step. And that was empowering.
What followed was 2.5 months of the darkest time of my life..I was depressed. I was suicidal. I hated myself and I hated everything my life represented.
Did I need to experience this? Absolutely. Every journey to the heart of unhappiness begins with a feeling. If that feeling leads you to want to bury yourself in a hole and cry for a week so be it.
You will survive. You will be stronger.
This is the formula for emotional freedom. You may need a third party to help you through this process.
Important note – On my course I learned a valuable clearing process. You can use it when you’re feeling stuck. It’s simple, easy, and you can do it by yourself once you’re familiar with it. If you’re interested I can send you the script. For those of you familiar with Brendon Bays, its a similar concept to the journey..in a summarised version. (Many thanks Chris Whitcoe for being a Master clearer and introducing this script! x) :
Let it go
Perhaps if anyone’s interested I can go through the above in detail. .please ask if you’re interested.
Let me define anxiety for you.
Anxiety is when you’re living in the future. You’re worrying about what happens tomorrow. Michael has this amazing piece of advice for me everytime I forget basic lessons like living in the future:
Just stop it.
Depression is the result of living in the past.
Anxiety is the result of living in the future.
Peace reigns when you live fully in the present.
You’re not weak for asking for help! Talk, journel, reach out!
If that little voice tells you you need more…
Always available for you lovely. If you ever want to chat let me know.
Trust the process
Trust the first step
Action will set you free!
Let it go
How many times have I played this song? It’s my theme song. If I’m feeling anxious I play it. I play it multiple times.
I play it everyday without fail.
It definitely works a treat for women – strong amazon warrior-type women with unfulfilled destinys just waiting to be activated!
So don’t be shy to love it! Its powerful!
Sending you all my love and support xx
Welcome home me!
After a crazy week, but an astoundingly enjoyable?? flight home….Air NZ of course!…..I touched down in Auckland to the most beautiful sunny day. I was picked up and taken away from Auckland chaos to my very good friends amazing slice of paradise….Trees, hills, valleys, a dog…bliss. For 2 days, I slept, was fed amazing food and was very spoilt. Serenity. Peace. Good company. Thanks guys, you rock!
It feels good, but challenging to be home. I flew into Wellington this morning. It was also a beautiful sunny day down here. As I sat eating a whole pizza to myself with a friend today, I looked out the window. I had a moment. This is what I said to him:
I’m in the matrix. Everything here is fake. Everyone is wearing a shield of fakeness. They live in their fake houses, pursue their fake careers and live their fake lives. Why? Is it because the reality of who they are is too scary to present to the world?
Everyone tries so hard to be an adult, to be taken seriously, to build up an image. That image turns into an emotional shield. And all of a sudden, we’re not feeling anymore, we’re robots, surviving..in the Matrix. Maybe this is judgemental, maybe its all comparative to my experience in coming from Ubud where everyone strives to be in touch with the reality of who they are. A requirement of this is to live in heartspace, Not Ego….or maybe…just maybe, I might be onto something….
My solution to the feeling of ickiness I felt from this was very simple. Take some time out for ME! This afternoon I meditated. I lay in bed for 4 or 5 hours, listening to music, writing this blog and journalling and contemplating. I contemplated the question I always contemplate when I’m stuck and not sure of what to do next:
What do you want right now, at this moment in time?
It turned out I wanted a Rapunzel Coco Sesamini…which…sidenote… are these amazing coconut and sesame seed snack bars…so yum!
And secondly, I wanted to reach out to my audience and ask you to consider something for me.
When was the last time you danced like no one was watching?
When was the last time you stayed in bed all day?
When was the last time you daydreamed?
When was the last time you did something for you?
When was the last time you embraced your inner child?
When was the last time you had a massage?
When was the last time you lay on the grass and stared at the clouds?
When was the last time you got up to watch the sunrise?
Connect like you did in the 90’s
I had to say 90’s because in 1980 I was 4 years old, and in 1989 I was 13 years old. I would say most of my phone conversations took place in the 90’s. When I say phone conversations I’m actually referring to those old dial phones. Phone numbers were 4 digits long…ours was 7138. My best friend was 8283.
Often you’d be on the phone for 2 or 3 hours with your friends. If somebody was using the phone, the phone was engaged. There wasn’t any call waiting. Your friend had your full undivided attention. Actually you’d also spent 8 hours that day at school with them. And you still had stuff to talk about.
Often you wanted to go and see them. So you’d get on your bike. Or maybe you’d both get on your bikes and you’d go off an adventure..to the river..or down to the beach. I remember so many afternoons whiled away, building huts by the river, playing in the forest and running amok in the paddocks, riding horses, riding rams?…we were out in the sunshine, barefoot on the grass, tanned, wild and free….. Where did that type of childhood disappear to?
The Inner child
When I was at primary school, purple crayons were valuable. All the crayons would sit in the sun along the window ledge, melting. When it was time to draw, there was always a run for the ice-cream container with the most purple crayons.
Purple has always been my Mum’s favourite colour. Purple was my favourite colour for about 2 weeks. I still like it. But its more that it has huge significance for me now. I’ve had so many synchronicities that involve the colour purple.
Firstly, when I think about purple, it reminds me to embrace that part of me, my inner child that loves to dance, sing, play, have fun, be silly…..like I did when I was 4 or 5. When you’re 4, you’re so innocent, untouched, unshaped. You’re entranced by small miracles…you’re wowed by the beauty and movement of a butterfly….
Aura’s and a random cow story
I have a friend who can see Aura’s. We have a very close connection. Aura’s are intriguing to me, because I can’t see them, but usually I can guess what mine is by whatever colour I’m attracted to that day. I don’t see it, but I feel it. Today I’m navy blue. The colour of groundedness. This completely make sense, not only because I feel grounded, but because of this story……
This morning I woke up to see the sunrise. It was at 6.04am in the beautiful Ness Valley. But because the Ness is a valley, I didn’t see the sun until closer to 7am. I climbed up the hill behind the house and sat down on my jacket. The grass was dewy and cold. I set spotify to random shuffle. I waited.
The next song was Good life by One Republic. It was kind of perfect. And I wanted to dance. So I danced…I danced for a long time.
….I stopped when I felt a large wet tongue on my arm. When I looked up I was surrounded by cows. They were weirdly attracted to flailing crazy girl. They were trying to lick me and my things like a salt block. Sidenote: If there are any cow psychologists in my audience, I’d be interested in your explanations as to why I was seen by a herd of cows as a block of himalayan salt!!!
My aura’s to date have gone from orange to blue to lavender to purple. I’ve added an article, at the end of this blog, if you’re interested in knowing what the different aura’s mean.
Goodbye 2014 Year of the horse confrontations, chaos and illumination. Welcome 2015 Year of the sheep…integration.
I wanted to provide some context around 2014 for you, and reassure you that 2015 will be so much more enjoyable. I say I wanted, not I will, because my phone has died and it has a really good article on it which I can’t share. In summary, it describes the above. The year of the horse was a year of challenges, tests and survival. Congratulations if you made it out in one piece! There’s only a few more days to go, before peace reigns down on you in bucket loads.
The year of the sheep – 2015 – will be a walk in the park compared to 2014. Breathe out a sigh of relief, and get ready with your New Years resolutions. You get to integrate everything you’ve learned this year. But….in a lovely supportive, easy breezy way. I’d like to support you in anyway I can. If you have any requests on subject topics, please do ask!
In the meantime, I invite you all to embrace your true self, your inner child and take some time for you….gather your purple crayons, dance in a paddock of cows, feel the freedom of endless time….dream….
Aura Color Meanings
ABOUT AURAS AND AURA COLOR MEANINGS
WHAT IS THE AURA?
The aura is the electromagnetic field that surrounds the human body (Human Energy Field-HEF) and every organism and object in the Universe.
The Human Energy Field as a collection of electro – magnetic energies of varying densities that permeate through and emit or exit from the physical body of a living person. These particles of energy are suspended around the healthy human body in an oval shaped field. This “auric egg” emits out from the body approximately 2-3 feet (1 metre on average) on all sides. It extends above the head and below the feet into the ground.
To see a photo of the aura, please click here.
WHAT DOES AN AURA CONSIST OF?
The aura consist of seven levels/layers/auric bodies . Each one of the subtle bodies that exist around the physical body, has its own unique frequency. They are interrelated, and affect one another and the person’s feelings, emotions, thinking, behaviour, and health as well. Therefore a state of imbalance in one of the bodies leads to a state of imbalance in the others.
THE AURIC BODIES AND YOUR NEEDS ON EACH LEVEL OF AURIC FIELD
1) Physical auric body – Physical sensations. Simple physical comfort, pleasure, health.
2) The etheric auric body – Emotions with respect to self. Self-acceptance and self love.
3) Vital auric body – Rational mind. To understand the
situation in a clear, linear, rational way.
4) Astral (emotional) body – Relations with others. Loving interaction with friends and family.
5) Lower mental auric body – Divine will within. To align with the divine will within, to make commitment to speak and follow the truth.
6) Higher mental auric body – Divine love, and spiritual ecstasy.
7) Spiritual (intuitive) body – Divine mind, serenity. To be connected to divine mind and to understand the greater universal pattern.
Learn How to See Auras.
Aura Color Meanings
RED AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the physical body, hart or circulation.The densest color, it creates the most friction. Friction attracts or repels; MONEY worries or obsessions; anger or unforgiveness; anxiety or nervousness
Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.
Muddied red: Anger (repelling)
Clear red: Powerful, energetic, competitive, sexual, passionate
Pink-bright and light: Loving, tender, sensitive, sensual, artistic, affection, purity, compassion;new or revieved romantic relationship. Can indicate clairaudience.
Dark and murky pink: Immature and/or dishonest nature
Orange Red: Confidence, creative power
In a good, bright and pure state, red energy can serve as a healthy ego.
ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions.The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to apetites and addictions;
Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.
YELLOW AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the spleen and life energy. It is the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going.
Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.
Bright lemon-yellow: Struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship; fear of losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power.
Clear gold metallic, shiny and bright: Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person.
Dark brownish yellow or gold: A student, or one who is straining at studying; overly analitical to the point of feeling fatigued or stressed; trying to make up for “lost time” by learning everything all at once.
GREEN AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to heart and lungs.It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change.Love of people, animals, nature; teacher; social
Bright emerald green: A healer, also a love-centered person
Yellow-Green: Creative with heart, communicative
Dark or muddy forest green: Jealousy, resentment, feeling like a victim of the world; blaming self or others; insecurity and low self-esteem; lack of understanding personal responsibility; sensitive to perceived criticism
Turquoise: Relates to the immune system.Sensitive, compassionate, healer, therapist.
BLUE AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the throat, thyroid. Cool, calm, and collected. Caring, loving, love to help others, sensitive, intuitive.
Soft blue: Peacefulness, clarity and communication;truthful; intuitive
Bright royal blue: Clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming
Dark or muddy blue: Fear of the future; fear of self-expression; fear of facing or speaking the truth
PURPLE/INDIGO AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the third eye, visual and pituitary gland.Intuitive, sensitive, deep feeling.
VIOLET AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system.The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self.Intuitive, visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.
LAVENDER AURA COLOR MEANING: Imagination, visionary, daydreamer, etheric.
SILVER AURA COLOR MEANING: This is the color of abundance, both spiritual and physical. Lots of bright silver can reflect to plenty of MONEY, and/or awakening of the cosmic mind.
Bright metallic silver: Receptive to new ideas; intuitive; nurturing
Dark and muddy gray: Residue of fear is accumulating in the body, with a potential for health problems, especially if gray clusters seen in specific areas of the body
GOLD AURA COLOR MEANING: The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker.
BLACK AURA COLOR MEANING: Draws or pulls energy to it and in so doing, transforms it. It captures light and consumes it.Usually indicates long-term unforgiveness (toward others or another) collected in a specific area of the body, which can lead to health problems; also, entitities within a person’s aura, chakras, or body; past life hurts; unreleased grief from abortions if it appears in the ovaries
WHITE AURA COLOR MEANING: Reflects other energy. A pure state of light. Often represents a new, not yet designated energy in the aura.Spiritual, etheric and non-physical qualities, transcendent, higher dimensions. Purity and truth; angelic qualities.
White sparkles or flashes of white light: angels are nearby;can indicate that the person is pregnant or will be soon
EARTH AURA COLORS: Soil, wood, mineral, plant. These colors display a love of the Earth, of being grounded and is seen in those who live and work on the outdoors….construction, farming, etc. These colors are important and are a good sign.
RAINBOWS: Rainbow-colored stripes, sticking out like sunbeams from the hand, head or body: A Reiki healer, or a starperson (someone who is in the first incarnation on Earth)
PASTELS: A sensitive blend of light and color, more so than basic colors. Shows sensitivity and a need for serenity.
DIRTY BROWN OVERLAY: Holding on to energies. Insecurity.
DIRTY GRAY OVERLY: Blocking energies. Guardedness.
Ohhh, 2 blogs in one day. The last didn’t count because I copied and pasted my speech. But this one is proper new material…its bloody long….but I like it….try not to fall asleep…
A few days ago I felt alone. I don’t usually feel alone.
I’m so busy being busy. I don’t have time for such silly emotions as being alone. I looked into this left field feeling and this is what came up.
I give. I serve. I fix. I heal. I counsel. I educate. I accept. I love.
But when I’m put into a situation when I can’t carry out the above, I feel alone. When I’m not equipped to independently resolve problems and I need someone to help me, and no-one is available, I feel alone.
But its actually not loneliness I’m feeling. In fact, what I’m actually experiencing is inadequacy. Lets go a little deeper with this……
If someone asks me for help, I give unconditionally and generously, without question. My time is their time. So when I don’t get that in return, I feel alone. No reciprocity. And why do I feel this lack of reciprocity? Because in this new age, we are simply not programmed to love, accept and give unconditionally. We are taught to hold on tight to our possessions. We are taught we could lose everything at a moments notice. We are taught to compete. We are taught to have more than our neighbours.
We are taught our possessions are a measure of our self worth
Who came up with this bullshit? And why do I feel a requirement to write about it? Because for the last year, I’ve felt like I had to tread carefully around people, as I wasn’t unsure of where I was going on this journey. I couldn’t define who I was, therefore I wasn’t sure where I should put my time and energy, and who I could trust to hold space for me. It’s not all roses. My confidence has been slammed more than once. All because I was rejecting the modern idea I’ve lived my 38 years by, and starting to embrace the idea that there was a better way. A way that most people I know are intrigued by but don’t understand and feel confronted by and defensive about.
A few days ago I told a friend that I felt like I was living a lie
I’m an Aries star sign. Fire. I’m optimistic, egotistical, impatient and some people find me intolerable. Most people don’t understand me or don’t choose to understand me…and most days I can’t be bothered getting into a conversation where I’m expected to justify who I am. Guess I should add arrogance to that list too.
My point….I haven’t been bothered before, that I was living a lie, that people didn’t really know what I was up to. But now I’m about to head home for a bit….its starting to matter to me. Because I’m Aries, I’m impatient, I’d rather put a blog out than have the same conversation 40 times…arrogant, impatient, egotistical, intolerable. This is acceptable over not saying anything. Of living a lie.
Who am I again?
When I left NZ, I was a different person to the person that I am now. Remember the BVOM (Best Version of Me)? Every week I get a little closer to this ideal that I introduced 3 months ago, this goal that I’ve been pushing myself to achieve at warp speed.
Remember that Dr Seuss book, “Are you my mother”, the classic tale of the bird searching high and low for its mother? Sometimes I just stop and put my finger to my temple, give it a bit of a scratch and ponder on who the hell I am…because everyday seems to bring new change. Sometimes I wake up and it takes me a minute to remember what country I’m sleeping in.
But I kind of thrive on this constant sporadic change, the excitement and the freedom of being a Gypsy Soul. I wouldn’t have it any other way. Shoot me if I’m ever tied down to a 9-5 job again.
Which brings me to who I am. I’m a healer, counsellor, teacher and educator. I guess I’m self appointed. This definition maybe a little weird to you if you know me from my ‘previous’ life. Because now you feel like you don’t know me at all, right? Well I guess that’s what this blog is being written for…..to rectify a few misconceptions and to introduce myself again.
I’m a healer
I use different modalities to heal. Energy work like Reiki is just one of them. But fixing a symptom is the ambulance at the bottom of the cliff.
My philosophy (which I stole from Hippocrates) is to use food as medicine and vice versa, and I’ll be investing more time in further study in Ayurveda and TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine), and Qi Gong to support this. My ties to China are strong and its just a matter of when that call will be answered.
I’m a certified raw food chef and detoxification consultant. My main passion in this area is educating EVERYONE on how compromised the digestive system can get, leading to serious illnesses like cancer, diabetes, heart disease etc. And how to rectify these imbalances by simply changing what you eat.
I’m a counsellor
I can talk, yes. I like to tell stories. But I can also listen. I’m a great listener. And I can put context and perspective to complex emotional issues – generally most are comfortable opening up to me. I’m good at just being there, and encouraging people to dig deep and feel their way into their own solutions. I favour lots of methods around this, but working on healing of limiting beliefs, muscle testing and astrology are all area’s I’m exploring.
I’m a teacher
Its come up time and time again, that I like to preach. That just makes me tired. I try not to do that anymore. So if you want to know stuff you’ll have to ask.
I’m an educator
More on this later. But have a few exciting plans up my sleeve for 2015! They’re all inspired by my continual desire to create communities.
I touched on my desire to serve earlier. The area I’m called to – in fact, the area that people are called to me for…is spiritual awareness. People literally find me, they fall into my path, to ask for assistance on how to become more conscious, to become more intuitive. Usually I find that a strong calling to a path of light presents as development of emotional or physical impairment (DIS-EASE – mind, body, soul).
People want guidance, and I’m fully invested in this on both a personal and global scale. I identify most with being a healer, which you might find confusing, but let me put this to you:
The ultimate expression of optimal health is discovered through the journey to enlightenment.
Kirsty Healey – Healer
A call to action – The rubber to the road. The pedal to the metal.
How funny that I wrote the title to this blog a good couple of weeks ago with some half hearted article copied to it. My last blog was on the 5th December, over 2 weeks ago, when I was feeling the overpowering feeling of unconditional love that accompanies enlightenment….but also it seemed…unlimited UNgrounding!!
It’s fair to say I continue to be tested. I haven’t learned all my lessons – it doesn’t work like that. Its a constant journey. But this lesson had me up at 4am this morning working, dancing, blogging and loving the BVOM and the empowerment of mastering this lesson.
You are never alone if you truly love yourself
Ohhhh, just listened to this…love the synchronicity.. Alone – Heart. Old school.
Article – Transitions – A Question of Soul
Our soul, our true self, is the most mysterious, essential, and magical dimension of our being. In fact, it is not a separate reality, as traditional Western thought views it, but the cohesive force that unites our body, heart, and mind. It is not a ghost trapped somehow in the physical machinery of our body but the very essence of our being. ~ G A B R I E L L E R O T H
A transition is a life-altering event, and although the content will differ from person to person, the context is generally the same. A transition comes to shake up our lives, open and move us, and shift who we are being and becoming in the world. It comes to help us, reconnect us to a sense of wholeheartedness, return us to a state of resourcefulness, and redirect us to a whole new track or orientation in life.
As perhaps you can appreciate, a transition is a major experience that leaves us transformed, both inside and out. Transitions are not random events; they are orchestrated by a deeper intelligence to disrupt and also liberate our lives.
We could call this deep intelligence by several names: Life Force, Soul, Higher Self, Tao, Buddha Nature, and Christ Consciousness. “ere are many names, but when it comes down to it, the name does not matter; the important thing to remember is that we are more than this body, this personality, this collection of ego selves, this social identity. Soul operates on many planes of existence, and Earth is but one. It is as Master Jesus said, “In my Father’s House there are many rooms” (John 14:2).
Not all planes are as dense or as challenging as this one. Beyond this plane, the laws of time operate differently. Here, time is linear, but in the realm of soul, past, present, and future are not so distinct. “is is how soul can create synchronicities, which are events in the coming future. Soul can also set up current events to heal past karma. Soul is more powerful than we realize.
Transitions – A Question of Soul
In this world, soul is mostly misunderstood or goes unrecognized. When we come out of the birth canal, we forget we are light and start to live under the illusion that the body is all there is. “is then leads to the idea that without the physical body there would be no consciousness, no existence. ” This is not the case. We are sleepwalkers in this world, and a transition is there to remind us that our personality and body are not the center of the universe. “e body is impermanent, and one day its strength and beauty will pass away.
A transition comes to wake us up from our illusions and delusions. If we are worshiping false idols, then we are not honoring the light within. A transition is meant to open us to the realm of soul. A transition helps us experientially cultivate authenticity, a resilient spirit, a guiding sense of trust and faith, and a meaningful engagement with life. A transition reminds us that life is no mere set of routines. ” The soul is eternal, and it incarnates here on Earth to learn, celebrate, stretch, and grow. If we forget this, we lose our ability to smile, laugh, and cry.
Life can be hard, and most of us are taught to toughen up, hide our vulnerability, and get real. Our peers support us in achieving, chasing, and competing, or on the flip side, getting our needs met by shouting the loudest or playing painful victim games. We become used to putting on a brave face or trying to look good or maintain our cool. “is begins in childhood and kicks off in earnest during teenage years, when we are scrambling to find a new sense of acceptable identity in the world. (Adolescence is itself a major time of transition, which sets the scene for our adult years.)
Transition was once mainly a simple yet profound process of maturation. Living in the modern world is more complex. We are disconnected from our heart and inner light. Now, transition is both a maturation and an awakening process. We need to awaken to our integrity our authentic self, our inner light. When we are disconnected from who we truly are there is a loss of integrity, peace of mind, and courage. We believe what the media or governments are telling us, even though our heart says something different. Here is great peace of mind in feeling the connection to our inner light.
Integrity means not necessarily conforming to societal norms. We listen to others, and we trust our own path. “e word courage comes from the French word coeur, meaning ‘heart.’ Heart and soul are terms that often refer to the same essence. To live a soulful life is to live a courageous life. Soul is the essence of who we are. Our inner light creates a body to inhabit to live in and encounter certain experiences and lessons on the earthly plane. Our soul sets up challenges to meet and learn from. Some of these challenges originate in other lifetimes. Everything is meant to be a learning experience.
This is not to say that the earthly plane is part of some cosmic school. Learning is not meant to be serious and hard. Often, we learn the most when we are having fun and taking life lightly. Often, we learn the most when we are curious, engaged, focused, and purposeful. We learn the most when we feel loved and loving. The most powerful force in the universe is love, and when we are connected to our inner light we know this in blood and bone. Our inner light is part of the universal light. Love is a force that transforms everything.
A transition has much to teach us about love. Yet in this time frame, there is much fear and confusion about love and spirituality. There are so many ideas and belief systems and power games played with the realm of soul. This is because the earthly plane is passing through a time of great ignorance and darkness about spirituality. This is why so many feel confused about spirituality. The net result is that when we feel disconnected from soul we feel contracted, hardened, and afraid. Connection to soul is not a theoretical matter; it must be experienced in the mind and body to be truly known.
A transition helps us break through our fearful, hardened heart so that we can feel and breath the light of spirit once again. Transitions are where life shifts in powerful and unexpected ways. A transition is defined by the dictionary as a ‘passage from one form, state, style or place to another.’ Implicit in this definition is a process of transformation. Transitions cause us to mature emotionally and mentally so that we can cope with living in a complex world. They involve a whole psychological process.
Transitions help us deconstruct a rigid and self-critical ego. Ego could also be called our personality. Our personality is really a gestalt of sub personality parts. Problems come when our ego is too small a container for our inner light. Our personality can deny or resist the inner light. This creates certain problems and shuts down experiences and inner abilities that would otherwise be made available.
When most people talk about the ego, they are usually referring to inner aspects that seek to keep us safe, contracted, and shut down. The ego was not designed to be closed and fearful. We are training it to be that way. A connected, happy, aware, and awake ego is not really a problem. We need an ego to contain our inner light. Ego is there for a purpose. The problem with ego is usually that it is just too anxious, closed, defended, armored, or rigid. The ego is taught to believe in dualistic paradigms of superiority/inferiority and worthiness/unworthiness. The ego is taught to believe that chasing and acquisition is the path to happiness. The ego is taught to believe in looking good. The ego is taught that real genius is cultivated within a Masters or PhD program rather than in the University of Life. The ego is taught to be independent/self-reliant or a whining victim/martyr. The ego is not something we can change through reading a book. The ego has to be transformed, and a radical set of life experiences is one way this can happen.
“When faced with a radical crisis, when the old way of being in the world, of interacting with each other and with the realm of nature doesn’t work anymore, when survival is threatened by seemingly insurmountable problems, an individual life-form — or a species — will either die or become extinct or rise above the limitations of its condition through an evolutionary leap. ~ E C K H A R T T O L L E
There is nothing obvious about transitions. They can sneak up on us without us realizing, and they can begin in strange ways and be accompanied by an odd undercurrent of tension. How we deal with this undercurrent of tension is all important as it determines the overall experience of the journey. A transition will strip away everything nonessential and help us question everything we know about ourselves and our place in the world; therefore, a transition is often confronting and challenging. It brings us face to face with our deepest dreams and our deepest wounds. Personal transitions help us dig deep within ourselves to find a renewed sense of inner light and purpose.
Transitions are both random and predictable. Once the journey starts, within a certain parameter anything can happen. The journey contains elements of chaos, uncertainty, and surprise. This is how is must be. We cannot control the journey, which means we have to find qualities such as faith and trust to successfully navigate the way ahead.
Transition is a soulful journey; it is also a heroic one (one that is far simpler than the many complex theories derived from Joseph Campbell’s original and innovative research and thinking on the mythological hero’s journey). The journey is soulful because it returns us to our original essence. The journey is heroic because it will push us into new experiences and it will open our hearts—and in some cases crack them open, revealing inner abilities, gifts, and talents that were previously dormant.
About the Author
Steve Nobel is known in the body, mind, spirit community in the UK as the founder of the hugely successful, London based non-profit centre for contemporary spiritual and personal development, Alternatives. Trained as a coach and NLP practitioner Nobel is a popular workshop and retreat leader as well as a sought after speaker. He also works at the London based College of Psychic Studies. For more information visit: http://www.stevenobel.com
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Some of you asked for a copy of the speech that Ma very generously and perfectly gave on my behalf at the unveiling today. I was going to email it but since I haven’t posted for awhile, Kathy inspired me to turn it into a blog! Cutting and pasting is so my style at the moment!
Unveiling speech Sat 20th Dec
Delivered by Ma, on behalf of me
Hi to everyone from the concrete jungle of LA. A lot of you will be disappointed and maybe a little annoyed that I’m not there. This is of course, to be expected…because I’m super cool!
This wasn’t a decision made lightly by me. It means the world to me that you’re all there today commemorating Scotty’s life….that a lot of you came solely to support me. I’m blessed and grateful to have such amazing people in my life.
Connection has been a recurring theme for me since the start of my journey and all I ask of you today is to take a moment and feel what that means to you. For me its everything. Without it we are less than conscious. We are less than human. We are robots….living in the Matrix.
I encourage you all to embrace and appreciate and support each other today as you think about Scotty..and as you think about me. Because the most powerful thing you can do for me today is to feel and experience the love that’s being shared. Please send some to me!!! This concrete jungle needs it!!!
In my eulogy last year I said that I would live the rest of my life with no regrets like Scotty did. And that is what I’m doing now. I’m doing exactly what he would do and what he would expect of me . And a part of me feels that he lives on vicariously through me. That’s the crazy, spontaneous. .fly by the seat of my pants. .say inconsiderate things and make girls cry part of me!!!
He’s there with you all today. .just as he’s here with me..just as he’s with Pauline. .just as he’s with Uncle Peter in heaven. He’s looking down on us sending unconditional love, a huge shield of protection. ..and…. I’m hoping also..Abundance..Health, and Peace for 2015.
I wanted to mention that my reason for not making it there is family.
We all have blood family. .but then we also have the people that we adopt in that mean the world to us…the brothers from another mother. …you know what I mean. I would do anything for my family. I would do anything for any of you if you asked. This is who I am. Its kind of my life purpose to be of service and I look forward to sharing that vision with all of you soon. In the meantime… .know that we are all one big crazy collective family pulled together by one amazing man.
I love him. And today I miss him. I miss him so much that my bones hurt. But it will be fleeting.
Because its time for us to remember the good times….to move on and take a little piece of inspiration from his life. .so he didn’t die in vain…
I’d like you to take 1 minute of silence now and think of what that looks like for you. How will you change something in your life next year to reflect him. .to honor him. ..
I’d also ask that today we acknowledge Peter Knapp. .(Scott’s Uncle who meant the world to Scott). .and send a bit of love to Margaret and family.
But most importantly. ..while Scotty and Peter have passed. …there are people that are hurting right now, living, breathing family, that require our support.. Can I ask you all to send some love and light to Allister, Paola, Natalya and Vivienne in their hour of need.
Thank you all for making the effort to be here today. .you are all in my heart. Scotty is ecstatic. ..I can see him having his own 30 second dance party in the clouds. ..chest puffed out…cocky. .confident. ..wooing the girl angels with his charm. .totally getting away with all sorts of shit up there. ..that’s my man!!
I’ll see you all soon. .!! Please get in contact with me on my whereabouts. .I’m going to be around NZ at least until the end of January! Oohhhhh and have a 1/2 glass of wine for me..and a couple bottles for Scott..it would be rude not to…
He acknowledges each and every one of you and sends you love and healing and the courage to see endless possibilities. 😘😘😘😘😘