Wtf is a spiritual awakening?

..and can we call it something else?
And how does it apply to Ayurveda?

FULL MOON in Sagittarius is here calling us to see through the fog of illusion to pierce the truth within. There is lots of electric and creative energy stirring but we must meet it with grounded discernment. So let’s find some time to be still and just Be, as we allow the Light of the Full Moon to bring her illumination.

Mmmm…this is a subject I’ve been wanting to blog on for some time and this full moon has jockeyed me into position, putting me in the right place at the right time, calling for the right thing…illumination with discernment.

I haven’t come up with a less airy fairy term than spiritual awakening yet..but earlier in my blogging I came up with the acronym BVOM, because its a cutesy non-confrontational way to describe a concept thats not so palatable to everyone.  I wanted terminology that sounded a bit normal…that made ME sound a bit more normal…which is probably impossible because I’m really not very normal…

Best Version of Me refers to digging deep down through sludgy emotional layers to figure out what makes me tick..observing the light and the dark.  After the process of illumination, taking those lessons and integrating them into the matrix…you on Earth…

I have changed.  My name is the same.  I look the same.  But the eyes that I view the world through have been altered permanently.  I feel different.

Yes I’ve been on and am still in a grieving cycle.  But this trauma was a catalyst for a change in direction that I could not have anticipated.

On my deepest meditation at a sound healing here in Ubud, I sank into that place where I felt, heard and observed that I was nothing….And I was everything.

This is the concept of Namaste.


I wasn’t drunk.  But I was high.  Not on drugs…on freedom.

It’s the most magical, mystical feeling to be flying around in meditation space experiencing the connection, the power, love and the infiniteness and the oneness of the Universe.

“I honor the place in you where Spirit lives
I honor the place in you which is
of Love, of Truth, of Light, of Peace,
when you are in that place in you,
and I am in that place in me,
then we are One.”

While I adore food, nutrition and alternative medicine, I have a strong pull to the metaphysical..the stars..the mysteries and the synchroncities.

…And chocolate..I also have a strong pull to chocolate mousse cake..but that could possibly be the candida talking.

Ayurveda means the science of or knowledge of life.  How perfectly has my writing and my path led me to this ancient art of mind, body, spirit?

From enemas to candida, depression to love…ayurveda packages them all up in a chaotic bundle and simply asks me to do 1 thing – to know myself better.  To take the knowledge and apply it to a way of life.  To become the BVOM.

What happens if I don’t?

..of the body
..of the mind
..of the Soul

I feel a lot of validation with Ayurveda.  It theorises all disease stems from the digestive system.  Who directs this drama towards disease?  The MIND.  Ayurveda is mind medicine.

To my crazy ass mind, (that would like to classify everything), a spiritual awakening is a series of signs from the Universe that cause me to not only see, not only feel, but to know that my path is to change course.  To acknowledge the truth.  To face fears.  To blindly step off a cliff trusting the wind will catch my wings.