Managing the healing crisis

For the past couple of months my body has been sore, achey, like I have the flu constantly.  I wrote a blog a few back on acidosis.  This focused on acidity in the bloodstream.  Yet this morning when I woke up I had the title for this blog swimming in my consciousness..not for the first time.

After 2 weeks of detox, including 2 hours of body treatments daily, yoga, meditation and blood purifying herbs and an easily digestable diet, my body has given up the aches.  My lymphs feel like they’ve drained..water retention has gone, tissue feels relaxed.  Even my neck is less stiff.  And I still have one more week to go.

Dispelling the toxins has allowed my mind to function with a little more clarity.

Why does the body succumb to disease?

From a physiological view, bacteria, fungus, virus or protozoa enter the system.  They attach to cells and multiply.  If the bodys natural defence systems can’t overcome the invasion, the body succumbs to disease.

When does the sickness become serious illness?

Serious illness does not happen overnight.  Its not like an accident where force or a Godlike event intervenes.  It takes time for acidity and toxicity to build up in the body.  It takes time for tissue, cells, blood and bone to become contaminated.

As soon as the system is unbalanced ie moving away from homeostasis, the body compensates in a million and one different ways to move back to its equilibrium.

Overwhelming disease occurs when the blood and lymphatic system are flooded, the immune system is shot and hasn’t enough soldiers standing to hold the frontline.  The endocrine system is confused and can’t produce the correct levels of hormones let alone secrete them.  Its like an orchestra without a conductor.  All because the conductor ie THE MIND cannot do its job with the disharmony created.  Every organ is playing its own tune and the melody is shattering.

Ayurveda protocol for serious disease

Rejuvenation to preserve life

Balance the doshas to strengthen the patient and weaken the disease

Panchakarma to purify the system

Removal of emotional cause of the condition when the patient is ready for it (theta healing)

Mopping up the mess

…So the body is out of balance?

…Then we add in MORE aliens ie medicine to fix it…(whether it be pharmaceutical or herbal)

The medicine does it job, but in the process of all the little micro organisms dying, toxic refuse and evacuated debris is stuck in suspension…

The body experiences the die off effect.

The die off prolongs feelings of illness. The body can’t rebalance itself enough to continue healing until its mess is ‘mopped up’

Some ways to do this :

Skin brushing and scrubbing.  Most toxins leave via the skin, usually resulting in outbreaks and a layer of scum.
Bentonite mud body pack (or bath).  Mix bentonite with water to make a mud.  Have fun applying.  Leave on for 15-30 minutes before showering.

Oil pulling.  An old practice of swishing coconut or olive oil in the mouth to remove toxins.

Massage specifically Lymphatic drainage.

Epsom salt baths – a handful of epsom salts, a couple tablespoons of baking soda and a few drops of essential oil.

Colonic hydrotherapy/enemas to empty the GI intestines of buildup, old and new.

Liver cleanse and flush.  Usually toxins ‘backflush’ to the liver which is already overloaded.  The liver also holds negative emotions.

Beneficial bacteria – Replace flora in the gut with probiotics.

Hydrate – lots of ginger tea, some room temperature lemon water.

Diet of whole/superfoods, lots of leafy greens.  Or in the case of rejuvenation programs, easily digested meals.

Detoxifying supplements – add a few to your food.  Eg Bentonite, zeolite, psyllium, linseed, aloe vera, wheatgrass, chlorella, spirulina, turmeric, moringa, noni.

Herbs and adaptagens
Hormone balancing – Maca, shatavari, dong quai, ashwaghanda, rhodiola.
Gut cleansers – oregano oil, diatomaceous earth, castor oil.
Blood purifiers – bitter herbs like dandelion, red clover, burdock, yellow dock, echinacea,
chaparral, goldenseal, mistletoe, sheep sorrell,  cats claw, bloodroot, cayenne (most of these have strong cancer killing qualities).  Pau d’arco.
Ayurvedic: Manjista, Neem, Bhumi-Amalaki, Guduchi, Kutki
Adaptagens – Maca, gingseng, rhodiola, ashwaghanda, chaga or reishi mushroom.
Antioxidants – olive leaf extract, glutathione, beta-carotene, vitamin C, A, E, zinc, selenium.

Ghee, activated charcoal to bind to toxins and help them leave the body

Sweating.  To open channels and help expel toxicity through the skin.

Yoga.  To connect the mind and body.  To stimulate energy flow.  To stimulate the lymphatic system.  To release emotions stuck in the body.

Meditation.  To still the mind allowing it to relinquish its hold on chaotic and confusing signals to the body.  To create space for healing.

Nourishing treatments – oil massage, facials and pampering to feed the Soul.

Rest and sleep – minimum of 6 hours of sleep a night.



Wtf is a spiritual awakening?

..and can we call it something else?
And how does it apply to Ayurveda?

FULL MOON in Sagittarius is here calling us to see through the fog of illusion to pierce the truth within. There is lots of electric and creative energy stirring but we must meet it with grounded discernment. So let’s find some time to be still and just Be, as we allow the Light of the Full Moon to bring her illumination.

Mmmm…this is a subject I’ve been wanting to blog on for some time and this full moon has jockeyed me into position, putting me in the right place at the right time, calling for the right thing…illumination with discernment.

I haven’t come up with a less airy fairy term than spiritual awakening yet..but earlier in my blogging I came up with the acronym BVOM, because its a cutesy non-confrontational way to describe a concept thats not so palatable to everyone.  I wanted terminology that sounded a bit normal…that made ME sound a bit more normal…which is probably impossible because I’m really not very normal…

Best Version of Me refers to digging deep down through sludgy emotional layers to figure out what makes me tick..observing the light and the dark.  After the process of illumination, taking those lessons and integrating them into the matrix…you on Earth…

I have changed.  My name is the same.  I look the same.  But the eyes that I view the world through have been altered permanently.  I feel different.

Yes I’ve been on and am still in a grieving cycle.  But this trauma was a catalyst for a change in direction that I could not have anticipated.

On my deepest meditation at a sound healing here in Ubud, I sank into that place where I felt, heard and observed that I was nothing….And I was everything.

This is the concept of Namaste.


I wasn’t drunk.  But I was high.  Not on drugs…on freedom.

It’s the most magical, mystical feeling to be flying around in meditation space experiencing the connection, the power, love and the infiniteness and the oneness of the Universe.

“I honor the place in you where Spirit lives
I honor the place in you which is
of Love, of Truth, of Light, of Peace,
when you are in that place in you,
and I am in that place in me,
then we are One.”

While I adore food, nutrition and alternative medicine, I have a strong pull to the metaphysical..the stars..the mysteries and the synchroncities.

…And chocolate..I also have a strong pull to chocolate mousse cake..but that could possibly be the candida talking.

Ayurveda means the science of or knowledge of life.  How perfectly has my writing and my path led me to this ancient art of mind, body, spirit?

From enemas to candida, depression to love…ayurveda packages them all up in a chaotic bundle and simply asks me to do 1 thing – to know myself better.  To take the knowledge and apply it to a way of life.  To become the BVOM.

What happens if I don’t?

..of the body
..of the mind
..of the Soul

I feel a lot of validation with Ayurveda.  It theorises all disease stems from the digestive system.  Who directs this drama towards disease?  The MIND.  Ayurveda is mind medicine.

To my crazy ass mind, (that would like to classify everything), a spiritual awakening is a series of signs from the Universe that cause me to not only see, not only feel, but to know that my path is to change course.  To acknowledge the truth.  To face fears.  To blindly step off a cliff trusting the wind will catch my wings.


Panchakarma means ‘5 actions’.  Pancha means 5.  Karma means action or procedure.

Panchakarma is the penultimate cleanse for the elimination of toxins (ama) and the replenishment of tissues.  Panchakarma comes from the ancient, holistic, healing system of Ayurveda which has its roots in India.

For five thousand years the people of India and China have been using plants to treat every disease known to mankind.  Why?  Because it works.  10 years ago a group of traditional scientists asked US Congress to fund research into Ayurveda.  What started as a $10m project grew into $100m. Ayurveda was approved as an addition to the 27th arm of NCCAM – the National Centre for Complementary and Alternative Medicine as a result.

This study was heavily related to the Human Genome Project which was formed to study how genes function individually and collectively.

How do genes relate to Ayurveda and Panchakarma?

Genes are switched on and off as we age.  When genes are on they make protein and perform a function.  And vice versa.  As we grow older some genes are switched on, others off.

Herbal therapy (ayurveda) works by utilising the protection system of a plant.  Plants produce toxins to protect themselves from insects.  These toxins have a unique ability to bind to our genes.  They provide the switch that the body hasn’t been capable of actioning.

There are 3 stages of PK therapy:
1.  Purva Karma – pre-treatment
2.  Pradhana Karma – primary treatment
3.  Paschat Karma – post treatment

The 5 actions referred to consist of the following and appear at  various times during the 3 stages of PK.

1. Vamana – purging
2.  Virechana – liver flush
3.  Vasti – enema
4.  Nasya – nasal treatment
5.  Rakthamokshana – bloodletting

I’m Day 5 of a 21 day PK.  Day 1 I felt completely overwhelmed.  This might have had something to do with moving out of my villa and packing all of my worldly possessions (again) into bags…knowing that as of the 21st June I’m not sure where my path is going to take me..and said bags (again).  It’s not so much stress as its the emotion that comes with goodbyes, closing one door to open another that seems to put me into a temporary tailspin.  But that lasted one day and I woke up on Day 2 feeling completely settled in.

So what happens when Panchakarmering?

Each day begins with medicated ghee (Snehapana).  Ghee is derived from clarified butter – the protein is removed.  The purpose of the ghee is to bind to the toxins (ama) in the body.  The body is literally saturated with ghee. Tomorrow I have my last serving of 10 tablespoons with some nasty looking herbs swimming in the bottom.  Taking it is not so bad, and my body was craving the fat the first few days…now..not so much.


7am is yoga time for an hour.

Then Kitcheree is served for breakfast and lunch.  I really love kitcheree.  Its such a great comfort food.  Rice, mung dhal, veges and spices are combined into a soupy mix that my body craves it because I’ve literally felt like I’ve been starving!..which is unusual.  Because when I fast I rarely feel like I’m starving…ironically…


In the afternoon, EVERY day I have 2 hours of treatments including Abhyanga (medicated oil massage), Shirodhara (medicated oil dripped onto the forehead), Nasya (oil decoction into nostrils),  Pasta (paste of onion, garlic, ginger, pepper applied to the body) and Bashpasweda (steam treatment).

3 times a week a 45 minute meditation is offered which I generally decline preferring the mozzie-less, air conditioned comfort of my awesome room and a guided meditation of my choosing.

Purva karma finishes for me shortly and I move into the primary treatment next week.

Why are you doing another detox?

My latest bloods show Candida, low white blood cell count (low immune system) and low thyroid.  Hormone, electrolyte panels and a few other bits haven’t come back yet.  But my system is so ready for a reset.  I tend to do monthly liver flushes but the last structured fast was back in December.  None of the above are surprising after having parasites.  Panchakarma is literally a program of rejuvenation so it makes sense.

Alternative medicine takes more time and a more effort than traditional medicine to get results, but I’m willing to do this rather than to fall prey to a Western medical system, that frankly I feel doesn’t serve me or anyone.  I just can’t support the miseducation given to thousands that are simply listening to an authority figure for want of better information and choices.

I have a strong belief in mind medicine.  Its really crazy how stress, anxiety and depression can f#@k up your body.  I love the philosophy of Ayurveda because of this.  As well as having amusing names for conditions like Cantankerous bowel syndrome to keep me entertained, Ayurveda encompasses not only science but religion and philosophy.

In Ayurveda the whole of life’s journey is considered to be sacred.  Truth is Being, Pure existence, the source of all life.  Ayurveda is a science of Truth as it is expressed in life.

Isn’t that beautiful?