This is real. This is my life.

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Last week as I lay at the accupuncturists with 19 needles sticking out of me, I had a fleeting thought.

I’m not afraid to die.  The thought of dying is less scary than living

Its a morbid thought but one that has come to me before.   When I first began this journey, I used to be afraid of dying.  I think most people are.  But I realised its not death I’m scared of – its suffering.  I’ve suffered before. I feel like I’m suffering at the moment and thats because for a long time now, I’ve been running a race.  Its a race with no finish line.  I don’t even know who I’m racing.  My mind has created it and my body is being forced to tag along.  But they are fighting each other in an endless desire to go separate ways.  And instead…they’re both being burned.  I’M being burned….I mean literally, my adrenals are fked…which is why I have the flu’. Yeap..it appears I’m still human and can get sick.

You would think that being in Bali is a cup of tea…and cake.  I mean take a look at a day in the life of me:

Wake at 7am or 8am… or…later… Catch up on news online. Email. Text. Breakfast. Yoga. Swim. Accupuncture. Massage. Reflexology. Cake. Lie outside on the patio, in a thunder and lightening storm, contemplating my existence, eating chocolate and corn chips. More massage. Swim. Workshop. Dinner with friends. Ecstatic dance. Sing & dance with friends. Retreat with friends.

..all this while living in a tropical paradise.   It hardly seems like suffering does it?

But as with many Facebook pictures, what you see presented to you does not always reflect the journey.  It might amuse some of you when I say that living in a tropical paradise is not easy..particularly Ubud..it is after all part of a third world ..but apart from that…this place is uncomfortable and down right nasty at times. Because there’s no escaping the truth here.  If you’re bringing emotional baggage to Ubud, you better be prepared to face it head on or…you will suffer…You see Ubud is about personal development. .digging deep into those traumas, emotions and the deep dark shit that, once its bought out..you can’t send it back. ..its here to torture you until you deal with it.

If I followed my own advice, if I took my own medicine, what would I say to myself?

Take a break.

So today I adventured to a NEW tropical island..Gili Asahan, to a little bamboo cottage with no wifi. Its quiet. Just me, my journel and my hammock and…my thoughts…

In the last 6 months I’ve pondering many concepts on life and death, spirituality, truth and love.   But today I don’t know what is real.  In the last 18 months the only thing I identify with is death and change….and chaos. Sometimes it hard to distinguish whether my life stopped and a story began…and whether I’m still in the story or …where the hell am I?

Reality appears to be where I am right now.  It’s not yesterday or last month and its not tomorrow. It’s simply now. And it appears that if I just let go of everything and …swim. If I just swim..I’ve consciously decided not to suffer.

As I splashed around in the bay, looking back to the retreat, I made this decision. I decide not to suffer today.

This is my life. This is real.

This is not that bad.

Acidosis and Ozone therapy

It would be fair to say that when researching this article, the traditional Western theory behind acidosis was very scientific and rather boring.  I’m particularly interested in acidosis because, frankly, my body is in pain.  I’m stiff, and every muscle is sore.  I haven’t really done too much exercise, and I’ve had A LOT of massage, including lymphatic massage, which should have released any toxins in the body so its not the cause of this pain.  Its more than likely a low immune system thats caused my body to revolt, resulting in these puzzle pieces…

  • Unhappy blood with parasites,  65% efficiency
  • Difficulty breathing with the diaphragm, shortness of breath
  • Overly sore muscles
  • Fatigue and lack of energy
  • Past chronic liver issues
  • Pancreas compromised
  • Constipation
  • Hypertension

…it all adds up to acidosis.  In fact mild acidosis is pretty common.  But while I’ve been putting up with the pain for awhile, its  survivable.  But who wants to just survive?  I want to fly!

Before I launched into a multi pronged attack on acidosis, I wanted to get my facts straight.   This came about after my massage therapist gave me some reflexology.  Ketut is balinese.  He’s pretty cool.  He said to me ‘your digestion and pancreas is serious…drink water…..’  In the scheme of things, I’d like to think that my prognosis can’t be too serious if the treatment plan is to drink 8 glasses of water a day!  Given the high levels of humidity in Bali, the high levels of fungus, mould and bacteria in Bali and the fact that the human body is made up of over 70% water I guess that along with eliminating sugar, keeping hydrated is a no brainer.

Types of acidosis

Perfectly balanced blood has a ph of 7.4.  When body fluids contain too much acid and the lungs and kidneys can’t work to bring the body back into balance, this is known as acidosis.  There are two types of acidosis, metabolic and respiratory.

  1. Metabolic is when you’re kidneys can’t eliminate acid build up.
  2. Respiratory is when your lungs can’t eliminate carbon dioxide effectively.

What causes acidosis?

  • chronic airway conditions, like asthma
  • injury to the chest
  • obesity, which can make breathing difficult
  • sedative misuse, including overuse of alcohol
  • muscle weakness in the chest
  • problems with the nervous system
  • deformed chest structure

Metabolic acidosis

There are three major forms of metabolic acidosis:

  1. Diabetic acidosis occurs in people with poorly managed diabetes. Ketones build up in the body and acidify the blood.
  2. Hyperchloremic acidosis results from a loss of sodium bicarbonate. This base helps to keep the blood neutral. Both diarrhea and vomiting can cause this type of acidosis.
  3. Lactic acidosis occurs when there is too much lactic acid in your body. Many things can cause a buildup of lactic acid. These include chronic alcohol use, heart failure, cancer, seizures, liver failure, prolonged lack of oxygen, and low blood sugar. Even prolonged exercise can lead to lactic acid buildup or if your body has been fighting an overwhelming infection or even big drops in blood pressure.

Symptoms

Respiratory Acidosis

  • fatigue
  • becoming tired easily
  • confusion
  • shortness of breath
  • sleepiness

Metabolic Acidosis

  • rapid and shallow breathing
  • confusion
  • fatigue
  • headache
  • sleepiness
  • lack of appetite
  • breath that smells fruity – this is a sign of diabetic acidosis/ketoacidosis

Self diagnosis

Sounds to me like Lactic acidosis.  It fits in with my seesawing blood sugar levels and compromised pancreas, kidneys and chronic liver issues and all the symptoms that go with it.

Ok – so now you’ve had the sciencey stuff, heres a little timeline:

In 1895, Louis Pasteur, the founder of medical microbiology, declared in his dying words, “The germ is nothing, the inner terrain is everything”

In 1931, German biochemist, Dr Otto Warburg was awarded the Nobel prize for his theory that the prime cause of cancer is the replacement of the respiration of oxygen in normal body cells by a fermentation of sugar.’

In 1933, William Hay published a book claiming that disease is caused by autotoxification due to acidosis in the body.

In 1991, Theodore Baroody published his book, Alkalize or Die, which states ‘The countless names of illnesses do not really matter. What does matter is that they all come from the same root cause…too much tissue acid waste in the body!’

I want to concentrate on Dr Warburgs work.  After all he was a tiny bit smart.  He would have received a second Nobel prize if Hitler hadn’t been such an a*shole.

In laymans terms, Warburgs theory hypothesised that the cells of a cancerous patient, DO NOT have effective oxygen respiration i.e. not enough oxygen is received in order for the cell to perform the myriad of tasks that it requires in order to remove waste from the body.  The wastes could be lactic acid in muscle or in the case of yeast infection, ethanol or carbon dioxide.

What does this mean?  For whatever reason, the cells aren’t working properly, resulting in disease.   In order to get the cells functioning again, a treatment plan needs to be put in place, depending on the type of acidosis.

This all fits in nicely with the theory I learned from Michael last year in August when I did my first fast.  Disease forms from acidity in the body.

But why does acidity occur in the first place?

In my January blog I also stated that all Dis-ease first begins in the mind.  I want to extend on this theory, as I’ve learned a bit more since January.

If my thoughts, words and actions are not in alignment, my body cannot maintain homeostasis.  A push and pull is created in the body between the mind and the heart.  The body is in chaos.  It brings new meaning to the term thinking to death.  Some of us are a little more sensitive to this than others.  The body, being a true compass of our Soul’s desire, will start to reflect this immediately and send warning signals.  The warning signals are represented as acidity in the tissues and blood.  Acidosis.

Disease and cure from a spiritual and emotional perspective

I wrote a blog at the start of the year that has become the foundation for my journey back to perfect health – homeostasis.  Its really very simple and can be reflected as:

Earth, Wind, Fire, Rain, Ether.

Nature simply cannot operate without the elements.  We are animals.  We cannot operate without the elements.  What are the basic necessities of life?  I was taught in economics that we all require shelter, clothing, food.

But the one thing that we cannot survive 10 minutes without is oxygen.  Then water.  We will starve and eventually expire without sunlight.  Do I need to go on?

Through the perils of modern life, our sympathetic nervous system is constantly switched on.  We are in flight or fight mode.  Our reptilian brain has frozen us and we cannot move.  We cannot breathe.  And here lies the reason behind modern day disease – anxiety, stress and depression.

This does not happen overnight.  It happens over a long period of time.  The body starts sending signals that its moving away from homeostasis.  First it hints – maybe a twinge of pain.  Then it cries out, giving you a push, maybe an event that puts you in bed for a few days.  Then it really gets wild and makes you suffer.  Eventually… death.

Most of us are accustomed to being in a constant state of anguish, so we get used to it.  Some of us can actually survive for quite some time in this state.  But some of us can’t.  And we soldier on until it brings us to our knees…

…And this is the time we sit up and take notice.  Now ain’t that fked up?

If you suspect you have acidosis or you’ve been diagnosed, don’t wait to be treated.  If treated early, a full recovery is likely.

Treatment of Acidosis

Western medicine would typically use drugs to treat a severe case of acidosis.  As a preventative, don’t smoke, cut out sugar, hydrate etc.  But what about from an alternative method? Call me old fashioned, but I’d like to think I could get my oxygen from breathing.

But I’m afraid not many of us remember what it truly feels like to breathe and for our cells to be fully oxygenated.  I certainly didn’t.  The best ways I know how to assist the body to remember (without being hooked up to a oxygen bottle) are cardio exercise, breath work, yoga and ozone therapy.  I haven’t tried a hyperbaric chamber, but I’d like to. My theory is that its always good to give the body a hit of the good stuff before maintaining the resultant healthy state with maintenance.  In this scenario, ozone is the hit, and the rest are the maintenance exercises.  For chronic and terminal illnesses a course of Ozone is likely to be recommended, maybe alongside additional supplementation like high dose Vitamin C and possibly Vitamin B6, B12, B complex and D3.

I’ve had a few sessions of Ozone which I mentioned in some of my earlier blogs last year.  I found them to be hugely beneficial and so relaxing.  I literally went into a meditative state and laxed out.  This was after my first ever coffee enema! (which by the way, had me looking at life through new eyes).  At that stage I was unaware I was growing a fibroid and a polyp, but I guess these treatments kept them under control.  They started to flourish again when I had a 6 week gap from treatments when I went home for Christmas.  As soon as I got back to Bali, and started my treatment program again, both the fibroid and polyp disappeared.  Of course ozone was not the only treatment plan I had in place.

What is Ozone?   Ozone gas (O3) is not a new invention.  It was discovered in the mid 19th century and has been used effectively since then.  It consists of a molecule of three atoms of oxygen which is administered rectally, vaginally, intravenously or via the ears.

Ozone deactivates bacteria, viruses, fungus, yeast and protozoa by stimulating oxygen metabolism and activating the immune system.  During World War one, doctors reportedly used O3 to treat wounds topically, curing infection and inflammation.

Interesting fact: Genius inventor, Nikola Tesla patented the first O3 generator in the US in 1896, later forming the “Tesla Ozone Company

If disease stems from the mind, why can’t I set an affirmation to cure it?

Well you can.  And if your thoughts, words and actions are all in alignment, it will work.  But if you have spent 20 years getting sick, then it’s highly likely that seeds of doubt are likely to enter your mind.  Our minds are tricky.  Unless we feed them information that makes sense, they don’t want to align with our intuition. So if we can persuade them with new information that makes sense to us, that makes us believe, then at the very least, that 30% placebo effect will take place.  I say attack it from all angles.

After all, what else do we have, if we don’t have our health?

Disclaimer:

I’m not a doctor.  This blog is written purely from personal experience.  Please do your own research and form your own opinions and seek the advice of a trusted practitioner on your own personal situation.  I do not accept liability for any actions you may take on reading this blog.

References

Healthline

WebMD

Electronic healing

Alkalize or die

National Centre for Biotechnology Information (NCBI)