The seven emotional stages of grief are usually understood to be shock or disbelief, denial, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression, and acceptance/hope. Symptoms of grief can be emotional, physical, social, or religious in nature.
One day, after 3 years of tough times, when Scott was at his lowest and I didn’t know what else to do, Luger came into our lives. An 8 week old ball of fluff and cuteness. A doberman puppy. He was for Scott. But I loved that puppy. And I didn’t expect to love him. He was the runt of the litter, and when I saw him fall asleep standing up, isolated from the other puppies, I just had to have him.
Luger was different. He thought he was a person. Because he was treated as a person. He got away with everything. He’d eat anything. My underwear, socks, whole tubs of butter. He’d take wallets into the paddock and run through the long grass, scattering cards and notes.
Sleeping on the ground was not for him. He’d jump and scratch his way up any car door to get inside to a plush comfortable seat. When he got the ok to hop onto our bed, he’d burrow his way under the blankets until he was right at the end, curled up happily between our feet.
He was so naughty, because we let him be naughty…because he was adorable and we were so in love with him.
When we settled in for a long winters night, with the fire going, Luger would jump on the couch, buried in cushions. Puppyworld. Its an amazing place to live.
Scott loved Luger, and Luger loved Scott. They had a special bond.
We both cried when we had to leave both our puppies behind to go to Hong Kong. It felt so wrong to leave our babies behind.
Luger died on the 30th November 2014. A year to the day of Scott’s funeral. I like to think that Scott called him home. That’s the only thing that makes me ok with him dying.
I only found out he died a few days ago. I tried to dismiss his death, but I can’t, because this has truly been the worst 14 months of my life.
I’m only human. And Scott and Luger, they were my family. I loved that puppy. And I’m so sad that hes gone.