Happy New Years

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Happy New Year’s to you all 🙂

Woohoo 2015!!  I can’t tell you how excited I am that it’s finally arrived!!

I’m in beautiful Wanganui appreciating the sunshine after a night of rain and wind.

To be honest, I’m not sure what happened last night.  But it was fun….

Thank you..from the bottom of my heart!

I’d like to say a big thank you to you all for your loyal support over 2014.  I’ve received some statistics from WordPress.  My most popular blog was “On that day – 23 Nov 2014”.  It was viewed 2,100 times in a 2 1/2 month period.  Thanks everyone!!  I’m pretty happy about that.   I had readers from 25 countries.  Wow! – blown away by all the support out there – feeling very humbled.

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Gratitude & Affirmations

We spent a lot of time last night chatting about Gratitude and Affirmations.

I want to share mine with you:

What I was grateful for in 2014

An awakening consciousness

Having the love of the most beautiful man for too short a time

Best friends and how our relationships have deepened

My family for challenging me, teaching me acceptance and patience, being there through thick and thin

My amazing group of healers for making me whole again

Chaos – it precipitated change

BVOM (Best Version of Me) being unveiled

The Universe – for giving me the tools to support others

2015 Affirmations

Always be Present

Be non-confrontational.  Assist only when asked

Have no regrets

Enable my tribe.  Arm them with tools

There is no fate but what you make

(tx for this one Ma…quote from the terminator..)

Embody self love

Be mindful of peoples feeling and the current stage of their journey

Put myself first

No guilt

Wanderlust

I choose love.  I am love.  Love is the only Truth

This year, my very talented sister in law has made Gratitude jars for the whole family. How does this work?  During the year, drop in bits of paper with amazing things that have happened and then be astounded with them when you read them on NYE 2015.

Gratitude jars are a good way of managing your negative Self Talk.  Don’t forget to ask for what you want, and to affirm it everyday!

Be mindful of your words – They shape your future.

Everybody’s changing and I don’t feel the same

There are some changes afoot!  I’ve created a new facebook page to post my blogs to, and I’ll be introducing a shiny new health and nutrition blog!  I’d love for you to be a part of it.  Please like my page (if you feel guided to) at the following link:

https://www.facebook.com/lotusinlacuna

Hot new theme song

Articles:

Information on the Year of the Sheep

2015 Year of the Wood Sheep, Goat, Ram

1907, 1919, 1931, 1943, 1955,


1967, 1979, 1991, 2003, 2015,


2027, 2039, 2051, 2063, 2075

It is a common mistake to use Chinese Lunar New Year as the cutoff date for Chinese Zodiacs. The cutoff date is in early February.

Personality
Gentle, elegant, smart, assertive, artistic, creative, curious, shy, determined, and compassionate. Can be indecisive, pessimistic or moody. Tend to run away from problem instead of facing and fixing it.

Compatibility for Relationship or Business Partnership

Most Compatible With
Horse – Sheep can always rely on Horse’s caring and trust.
Pig – will be a great complement to Sheep.
Rabbit – will appreciate and adore Sheep’s talents very much.

Most Incompatible With
Dog – Sheep and Dog will constantly blame each other.
Ox – cannot appreciate Sheep’s strength or put up with its weakness.
Rat – Rat’s ambitious nature does not mix well with Sheep’s passive nature.

Based on the forecasted astrological events of the period, the 2015 horoscope and the Year of the Wood Goat promises much more favorable times as compared to the previous year. Many astrologists conclude from the conditions of 2015 that the processes that have been unfolding and spreading chaos for the past few years are finally wrapping up; both political and economic situations in the world are starting to stabilize. Many people’s quality of life is getting higher and the crisis that has been tormenting many counties for the past several years is finally promising to be over. In other words, theyear of 2015 is a crucial one! In 2015, which is according to the Oriental calendar is a year of the Ram (also year of the Sheep or Goat), one epoch is coming to replace another and the whole mankind have once again high hopes for the future. Even though we have always been hopeful and will continue to be such, this time the whole humanity do have a feasible chance to change the world for the better! It goes without saying, one would hope we would truly be deserving of the positive changes and we would be allowed to create the small paradise on earth that we dream of. It must be said once again that there has never been this many signs and favorable planetary aspects confirming the positive nature of the upcoming changes – we simply can’t ignore these signs!

The Chinese horoscope for the year of the Ram can also provide confirmation of the favorable changes in the upcoming year. 2015 will start on February 19 and end on February 7, 2016. The first thing that stands out in many orientalhoroscopes for 2015 is the newly gained faith in a stable economic growth. In the Chinese traditional astrology 2015 as the year of Yui Wei or the 32nd year of the Green Wooden Ram (also Sheep or Goat) is allegorically represented as the period of a passing summer – the period of prosperity and wellbeing. Quite often one can come across the following wording: “The creative side of the Wooden Ram; its diligence applied to hard work ensures prosperity”… Let’s agree words like these don’t leave any room for doubt when it comes to the future wellbeing.

Western astrologists in their turn confirm the positive nature of 2015 by tracking positive signs of the planets’ changing aspects and their position relative to each other. Various zodiac horoscopes for 2015 highlight the overall tendency toward stabilization and general improvement; this will be aided by several astrological factors at the same time.

First, Saturn’s transition into the Zodiac sign of Sagittarius at the very end of 2014 will come into play. As early as January of 2015 all people on the planet will be able to tell the difference. Many political problems and economic issues will be viewed differently. Educational matters will move to the front seat and the main focus will be set on post-graduate education. All year long we may expect new legislative regulations which will allow for structural innovations in educational establishments as well as “order” in this branch of educational affairs. Apart from education, changes will also be introduced to the relations between countries; some of them will reach an agreement on visa-free entry and others, on the contrary, will close their borders. It should be noted, though, that this change will only be vocalized in 2015, and the main events will unfold in the following years.

Second, the tension between Pluto and Uranus that has been there since June of 2012 will finally ease up. This will bring many conflicts that have been persisting from 2012 to 2014 to an end. Surely, we can’t expect to know the winners and losers in this “war” since the underlying reason of all the outrages in the world has been of political nature. However, we can safely say that many processes that affected Europe, Ukraine, Egypt, Syria and a number of African countries will make it impossible for them to go back to their old system and maintain their political course. Let’s hope the changes in the above-mentioned countries will be more of a positive nature. The end of tension between the planets will mark the end of the whole epoch. Starting with 2015 most of the countries will be living in the post-industrial society. It should be noted that the innovations presented to us in 2015 can transform our life similar to the invention of the Internet or cell phones. The progress in the field of high technologies will make it possible to influence politics and this must be one of the crucial factors in the future formation of our society.

Third, in the first half of 2015 there will be a harmonious aspect between Jupiter and Uranus. This can have an unexpected effect on the development of the Internet technologies and wireless connections as well as those innovations that will only be presented to the key players of the high tech market. Jupiter is the planet of expansion and due to its influence many will notice that technologies have become accessible and available to practically everybody. Also, in 2015 the mankind may make some significant progress in space industry; for example, in the first half of 2015 there may be some “news” from the spacecraft sent to outer space for exploration and research. Received data can fundamentally change our interpretation of how the universe works, how life on earth came to be and whether there’s life on other planets.

Fourthly, in August of 2015 we will witness Jupiter’s transition into the Zodiac sign of Virgo. This will first and foremost positively affect the economic growth; the economics will rapidly stabilize and the markets will be quickly recovering from the losses suffered in the previous years. Another good promise of 2015 is the overall heightened attention to ecological issues, environmental protection, healthy eating habits and healthy life style. People’s health will become the focus. We can expect large-scale measures taken to improve health of entire nations. Unconventional medicine and the spheres associated with it will be of special importance.

Overall, it can be said that in the first half of 2015 the processes that have been in place for the past years will be over and in the second half of 2015 both political and economic situation in the world will be void of turmoil and conflicts. Closer to the summer months, when positive events will start overshadowing negatives ones, people of many countries will finally be able to sigh with relief and restore their faith in the future.

It is hard to report on 2015 in detail, but one thing is for sure: the events that 2015 has in store will prove unforgettable! Unbelievable striking events are ahead – we just need to be patient enough to wait for them to happen…
More:http://www.gotohoroscope.com/2015-horoscope/

I’m stuck. I’m at a crossroad. I can’t breathe

Greetings again!

I know you’re thinking,  really?, so soon, I haven’t fully taken in the last confrontation?
I’ve received a number of interesting messages leading up to the end of the year.  They have a similar theme.   I’m at a crossroads.  I’m unhappy.  I’ve been unhappy for awhile.   But I’ve only just realised there’s a better existence for me than the one I have. ..but I’m so stuck.  I have no room to move. ..I have a career, a mortgage, a family to support.   Maybe I’m just scared.   I’m so scared that I can’t even move…..or breathe.

Let me put those feelings of anxiety into context for you. …

I also felt exactly like you did. .earlier in the year for many months…the feeling started as a small uncomfortable feeling but quickly  escalated over time to be a heavy feeling on my chest like a huge concrete block was sitting on it and I was suffocating.  Alongside that I had terrible brain busy-ness and i couldn’t find clarity or context.  I was stuck.

I needed help.  I reached out to Ma and she put me in touch with my now mentor, psychic and very good friend Jehanne Thomas.  One 1 hour session with Jehanne on a Saturday and on the following Monday..I resigned from my job.  I didn’t have all the answers.   I didn’t have a plan.   But I had the next step.   And that was empowering.

What followed was 2.5 months of the darkest time of my life..I was depressed.  I was suicidal.  I hated myself and I hated everything my life represented.

Did I need to experience this? Absolutely.  Every journey to the heart of unhappiness begins with a feeling.  If that feeling leads you to want to bury yourself in a hole and cry for a week so be it.

You will survive. You will be stronger.

This is the formula for emotional freedom.  You may need a third party to help you through this process.

Important note – On my course I learned a valuable clearing process.  You can use it when you’re feeling stuck. It’s simple,  easy, and you can do it by yourself once you’re familiar with it.  If you’re interested I can send you the script.  For those of you familiar with Brendon Bays, its a similar concept to the journey..in a summarised version.   (Many thanks Chris Whitcoe for being a Master clearer and introducing this script! x) :

The Process:
Acknowledge
Accept
Surrender
Let it go
Forgive
Love

Perhaps if anyone’s interested I can go through the above in detail. .please ask if you’re interested.

The Gap
Let me define anxiety for you.

Anxiety is when you’re living in the future.  You’re worrying about what happens tomorrow.   Michael has this amazing piece of advice for me everytime I forget basic lessons like living in the future:

Stop it!

Just stop it.

Depression is the result of living in the past.

Anxiety is the result of living in the future.

Peace reigns when you live fully in the present.

Seek Counsel

You’re not weak for asking for help!  Talk, journel, reach out!

If that little voice tells you you need more…

Jehanne Thomas
http://www.lovingvoice.com

Always available for you lovely.   If you ever want to chat let me know.

Trust the process
Trust the first step
Action will set you free!

Let it go
How many times have I played this song?  It’s my theme song.  If I’m feeling anxious I play it. I play it multiple times.

I play it everyday without fail.

It definitely works a treat for women – strong amazon warrior-type women with unfulfilled destinys just waiting to be activated!

So don’t be shy to love it!  Its powerful!

Sending you all my love and support xx

The Matrix

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Welcome home me!

After a crazy week, but an astoundingly enjoyable?? flight home….Air NZ of course!…..I touched down in Auckland to the most beautiful sunny day.  I was picked up and taken away from Auckland chaos to my very good friends amazing slice of paradise….Trees, hills, valleys, a dog…bliss.  For 2 days, I slept, was fed amazing food and was very spoilt.  Serenity.  Peace.  Good company.   Thanks guys, you rock!

It feels good, but challenging to be home.  I flew into Wellington this morning.  It was also a beautiful sunny day down here.  As I sat eating a whole pizza to myself with a friend today, I looked out the window.  I had a moment.  This is what I said to him:

I’m in the matrix.  Everything here is fake.  Everyone is wearing a shield of fakeness. They live in their fake houses, pursue their fake careers and live their fake lives.  Why?  Is it because the reality of who they are is too scary to present to the world?

Everyone tries so hard to be an adult, to be taken seriously, to build up an image.  That image turns into an emotional shield.  And all of a sudden, we’re not feeling anymore, we’re robots, surviving..in the Matrix.  Maybe this is judgemental, maybe its all comparative to my experience in coming from Ubud where everyone strives to be in touch with the reality of who they are.  A requirement of this is to live in heartspace, Not Ego….or maybe…just maybe, I might be onto something….

My solution to the feeling of ickiness I felt from this was very simple.  Take some time out for ME!  This afternoon I meditated.  I lay in bed for 4 or 5 hours, listening to music, writing this blog and journalling and contemplating.  I contemplated the question I always contemplate when I’m stuck and not sure of what to do next:

What do you want right now, at this moment in time?

It turned out I wanted a Rapunzel Coco Sesamini…which…sidenote… are these amazing coconut and sesame seed snack bars…so yum!

And secondly, I wanted to reach out to my audience and ask you to consider something for me.

When was the last time you danced like no one was watching?

When was the last time you stayed in bed all day?

When was the last time you daydreamed?

When was the last time you did something for you?

When was the last time you embraced your inner child?

When was the last time you had a massage?

When was the last time you lay on the grass and stared at the clouds?

When was the last time you got up to watch the sunrise?

Connect like you did in the 90’s

I had to say 90’s because in 1980 I was 4 years old, and in 1989 I was 13 years old.  I would say most of my phone conversations took place in the 90’s.  When I say phone conversations I’m actually referring to those old dial phones.  Phone numbers were 4 digits long…ours was 7138.  My best friend was 8283.

Often you’d be on the phone for 2 or 3 hours with your friends.  If somebody was using the phone, the phone was engaged.  There wasn’t any call waiting.  Your friend had your full undivided attention.  Actually you’d also spent 8 hours that day at school with them.  And you still had stuff to talk about.

Often you wanted to go and see them.  So you’d get on your bike.  Or maybe you’d both get on your bikes and you’d go off an adventure..to the river..or down to the beach.  I remember so many afternoons whiled away, building huts by the river, playing in the forest and running amok in the paddocks, riding horses, riding rams?…we were out in the sunshine, barefoot on the grass, tanned, wild and free…..  Where did that type of childhood disappear to?

The Inner child

When I was at primary school, purple crayons were valuable.  All the crayons would sit in the sun along the window ledge, melting.  When it was time to draw, there was always a run for the ice-cream container with the most purple crayons.

Purple has always been my Mum’s favourite colour.  Purple was my favourite colour for about 2 weeks.  I still like it.  But its more that it has huge significance for me now.  I’ve had so many synchronicities that involve the colour purple.

Firstly, when I think about purple, it reminds me to embrace that part of me, my inner child that loves to dance, sing, play, have fun, be silly…..like I did when I was 4 or 5.  When you’re 4, you’re so innocent, untouched, unshaped.  You’re entranced by small miracles…you’re wowed by the beauty and movement of a butterfly….

Aura’s and a random cow story

I have a friend who can see Aura’s.  We have a very close connection.  Aura’s are intriguing to me, because I can’t see them, but usually I can guess what mine is by whatever colour I’m attracted to that day.  I don’t see it, but I feel it.  Today I’m navy blue.  The colour of groundedness.  This completely make sense, not only because I feel grounded, but because of this story……

This morning I woke up to see the sunrise.  It was at 6.04am in the beautiful Ness Valley.  But because the Ness is a valley, I didn’t see the sun until closer to 7am.  I climbed up the hill behind the house and sat down on my jacket.  The grass was dewy and cold.  I set spotify to random shuffle.  I waited.

The next song was Good life by One Republic.  It was kind of perfect.  And I wanted to dance.  So I danced…I danced for a long time.

….I stopped when I felt a large wet tongue on my arm.  When I looked up I was surrounded by cows.  They were weirdly attracted to flailing crazy girl.  They were trying to lick me and my things like a salt block.  Sidenote: If there are any cow psychologists in my audience, I’d be interested in your explanations as to why I was seen by a herd of cows as a block of himalayan salt!!!

My aura’s to date have gone from orange to blue to lavender to purple.  I’ve added an article, at the end of this blog, if you’re interested in knowing what the different aura’s mean.

2015 Dream

Goodbye 2014 Year of the horse confrontations, chaos and illumination. Welcome 2015 Year of the sheep…integration.

I wanted to provide some context around 2014 for you, and reassure you that 2015 will be so much more enjoyable.  I say I wanted, not I will, because my phone has died and it has a really good article on it which I can’t share.   In summary, it describes the above.  The year of the horse was a year of challenges, tests and survival.  Congratulations if you made it out in one piece!  There’s only a few more days to go, before peace reigns down on you in bucket loads.

The year of the sheep – 2015 – will be a walk in the park compared to 2014.  Breathe out a sigh of relief, and get ready with your New Years resolutions.  You get to integrate everything you’ve learned this year.  But….in a lovely supportive, easy breezy way.  I’d like to support you in anyway I can.  If you have any requests on subject topics, please do ask!

In the meantime, I invite you all to embrace your true self, your inner child and take some time for you….gather your purple crayons, dance in a paddock of cows, feel the freedom of endless time….dream….

Article:

Aura Color Meanings
ABOUT AURAS AND AURA COLOR MEANINGS

WHAT IS THE AURA?
The aura is the electromagnetic field that surrounds the human body (Human Energy Field-HEF) and every organism and object in the Universe.

The Human Energy Field as a collection of electro – magnetic energies of varying densities that permeate through and emit or exit from the physical body of a living person. These particles of energy are suspended around the healthy human body in an oval shaped field. This “auric egg” emits out from the body approximately 2-3 feet (1 metre on average) on all sides. It extends above the head and below the feet into the ground.
To see a photo of the aura, please click here.
WHAT DOES AN AURA CONSIST OF?
The aura consist of seven levels/layers/auric bodies . Each one of the subtle bodies that exist around the physical body, has its own unique frequency. They are interrelated, and affect one another and the person’s feelings, emotions, thinking, behaviour, and health as well. Therefore a state of imbalance in one of the bodies leads to a state of imbalance in the others.

THE AURIC BODIES AND YOUR NEEDS ON EACH LEVEL OF AURIC FIELD

1) Physical auric body – Physical sensations. Simple physical comfort, pleasure, health.

2) The etheric auric body – Emotions with respect to self. Self-acceptance and self love.

3) Vital auric body – Rational mind. To understand the

situation in a clear, linear, rational way.

4) Astral (emotional) body – Relations with others. Loving interaction with friends and family.

5) Lower mental auric body – Divine will within. To align with the divine will within, to make commitment to speak and follow the truth.

6) Higher mental auric body – Divine love, and spiritual ecstasy.

7) Spiritual (intuitive) body – Divine mind, serenity. To be connected to divine mind and to understand the greater universal pattern.

Learn How to See Auras.
Aura Color Meanings

RED AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the physical body, hart or circulation.The densest color, it creates the most friction. Friction attracts or repels; MONEY worries or obsessions; anger or unforgiveness; anxiety or nervousness

Deep Red: Grounded, realistic, active, strong will-power, survival-oriented.

Muddied red: Anger (repelling)

Clear red: Powerful, energetic, competitive, sexual, passionate

Pink-bright and light: Loving, tender, sensitive, sensual, artistic, affection, purity, compassion;new or revieved romantic relationship. Can indicate clairaudience.

Dark and murky pink: Immature and/or dishonest nature

Orange Red: Confidence, creative power

In a good, bright and pure state, red energy can serve as a healthy ego.

ORANGE AURA COLOR: Relates to reproductive organs and emotions.The color of vitality, vigor, good health and excitement. Lots of energy and stamina, creative, productive, adventurous, courageous, outgoing social nature; currently experiencing stress related to apetites and addictions;

Orange-Yellow: Creative, intelligent, detail oriented, perfectionist, scientific.

YELLOW AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the spleen and life energy. It is the color of awakening, inspiration, intelligence and action shared, creative, playful, optimistic, easy-going.

Light or pale yellow: Emerging psychic and spiritual awareness; optimism and hopefulness; positive excitement about new ideas.

Bright lemon-yellow: Struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship; fear of losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power.

Clear gold metallic, shiny and bright: Spiritual energy and power activated and awakened; an inspired person.

Dark brownish yellow or gold: A student, or one who is straining at studying; overly analitical to the point of feeling fatigued or stressed; trying to make up for “lost time” by learning everything all at once.

GREEN AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to heart and lungs.It is a very comfortable, healthy color of nature. When seen in the aura this usually represents growth and balance, and most of all, something that leads to change.Love of people, animals, nature; teacher; social

Bright emerald green: A healer, also a love-centered person

Yellow-Green: Creative with heart, communicative

Dark or muddy forest green: Jealousy, resentment, feeling like a victim of the world; blaming self or others; insecurity and low self-esteem; lack of understanding personal responsibility; sensitive to perceived criticism

Turquoise: Relates to the immune system.Sensitive, compassionate, healer, therapist.

BLUE AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the throat, thyroid. Cool, calm, and collected. Caring, loving, love to help others, sensitive, intuitive.

Soft blue: Peacefulness, clarity and communication;truthful; intuitive

Bright royal blue: Clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming

Dark or muddy blue: Fear of the future; fear of self-expression; fear of facing or speaking the truth

PURPLE/INDIGO AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to the third eye, visual and pituitary gland.Intuitive, sensitive, deep feeling.

VIOLET AURA COLOR MEANING: Relates to crown, pineal gland and nervous system.The most sensitive and wisest of colors. This is the intuitive color in the aura, and reveals psychic power of attunement with self.Intuitive, visionary, futuristic, idealistic, artistic, magical.

LAVENDER AURA COLOR MEANING: Imagination, visionary, daydreamer, etheric.

SILVER AURA COLOR MEANING: This is the color of abundance, both spiritual and physical. Lots of bright silver can reflect to plenty of MONEY, and/or awakening of the cosmic mind.

Bright metallic silver: Receptive to new ideas; intuitive; nurturing

Dark and muddy gray: Residue of fear is accumulating in the body, with a potential for health problems, especially if gray clusters seen in specific areas of the body

GOLD AURA COLOR MEANING: The color of enlightenment and divine protection. When seen within the aura, it says that the person is being guided by their highest good. It is divine guidance. Protection, wisdom, inner knowledge, spiritual mind, intuitive thinker.

BLACK AURA COLOR MEANING: Draws or pulls energy to it and in so doing, transforms it. It captures light and consumes it.Usually indicates long-term unforgiveness (toward others or another) collected in a specific area of the body, which can lead to health problems; also, entitities within a person’s aura, chakras, or body; past life hurts; unreleased grief from abortions if it appears in the ovaries

WHITE AURA COLOR MEANING: Reflects other energy. A pure state of light. Often represents a new, not yet designated energy in the aura.Spiritual, etheric and non-physical qualities, transcendent, higher dimensions. Purity and truth; angelic qualities.

White sparkles or flashes of white light: angels are nearby;can indicate that the person is pregnant or will be soon

EARTH AURA COLORS: Soil, wood, mineral, plant. These colors display a love of the Earth, of being grounded and is seen in those who live and work on the outdoors….construction, farming, etc. These colors are important and are a good sign.

RAINBOWS: Rainbow-colored stripes, sticking out like sunbeams from the hand, head or body: A Reiki healer, or a starperson (someone who is in the first incarnation on Earth)

PASTELS: A sensitive blend of light and color, more so than basic colors. Shows sensitivity and a need for serenity.

DIRTY BROWN OVERLAY: Holding on to energies. Insecurity.

DIRTY GRAY OVERLY: Blocking energies. Guardedness.

A call to action

Ohhh, 2 blogs in one day.  The last didn’t count because I copied and pasted my speech.  But this one is proper new material…its bloody long….but I like it….try not to fall asleep…

 

A few days ago I felt alone.  I don’t usually feel alone.

I’m so busy being busy.  I don’t have time for such silly emotions as being alone.  I looked into this left field feeling and this is what came up.

I give.  I serve.  I fix.  I heal.  I counsel.  I educate.  I accept. I love.

But when I’m put into a situation when I can’t carry out the above, I feel alone.  When I’m not equipped to independently resolve problems and I need someone to help me, and no-one is available, I feel alone.

But its actually not loneliness I’m feeling.   In fact, what I’m actually experiencing is inadequacy.  Lets go a little deeper with this……

If someone asks me for help, I give unconditionally and generously, without question.  My time is their time.  So when I don’t get that in return, I feel alone.  No reciprocity.  And why do I feel this lack of reciprocity?  Because in this new age, we are simply not programmed to love, accept and give unconditionally.  We are taught to hold on tight to our possessions.  We are taught we could lose everything at a moments notice.  We are taught to compete.  We are taught to have more than our neighbours.

 

We are taught our possessions are a measure of our self worth

Who came up with this bullshit?  And why do I feel a requirement to write about it? Because for the last year, I’ve felt like I had to tread carefully around people, as I wasn’t unsure of where I was going on this journey.  I couldn’t define who I was, therefore I wasn’t sure where I should put my time and energy, and who I could trust to hold space for me.  It’s not all roses.  My confidence has been slammed more than once.  All because I was rejecting the modern idea I’ve lived my 38 years by, and starting to embrace the idea that there was a better way.  A way that most people I know are intrigued by but don’t understand and feel confronted by and defensive about.

A few days ago I told a friend that I felt like I was living a lie

I’m an Aries star sign.  Fire.  I’m optimistic, egotistical, impatient and some people find me  intolerable.  Most people don’t understand me or don’t choose to understand me…and most days I can’t be bothered getting into a conversation where I’m expected to justify who I am.  Guess I should add arrogance to that list too.

My point….I haven’t been bothered before, that I was living a lie, that people didn’t really know what I was up to.  But now I’m about to head home for a bit….its starting to matter to me.  Because I’m Aries, I’m impatient, I’d rather put a blog out than have the same conversation 40 times…arrogant, impatient, egotistical, intolerable.  This is acceptable over not saying anything.  Of living a lie.

Who am I again?

When I left NZ, I was a different person to the person that I am now.  Remember the BVOM (Best Version of Me)?  Every week I get a little closer to this ideal that I introduced 3 months ago, this goal that I’ve been pushing myself to achieve at warp speed.

Remember that Dr Seuss book, “Are you my mother”, the classic tale of the bird searching high and low for its mother?  Sometimes I just stop and put my finger to my temple, give it a bit of a scratch and ponder on who the hell I am…because everyday seems to bring new change.  Sometimes I wake up and it takes me a minute to remember what country I’m sleeping in.

But I kind of thrive on this constant sporadic change, the excitement and the freedom of being a Gypsy Soul.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.  Shoot me if I’m ever tied down to a 9-5 job again.

Which brings me to who I am.  I’m a healer, counsellor, teacher and educator.  I guess I’m self appointed.  This definition maybe a little weird to you if you know me from my ‘previous’ life.  Because now you feel like you don’t know me at all, right?  Well I guess that’s what this blog is being written for…..to rectify a few misconceptions and to introduce myself again.

I’m a healer

I use different modalities to heal.  Energy work like Reiki is just one of them.  But fixing a symptom is the ambulance at the bottom of the cliff.

My philosophy (which I stole from Hippocrates) is to use food as medicine and vice versa, and I’ll be investing more time in further study in Ayurveda and TCM (Traditional Chinese Medicine), and Qi Gong to support this.  My ties to China are strong and its just a matter of when that call will be answered.

I’m a certified raw food chef and detoxification consultant.     My main passion in this area is educating EVERYONE on how compromised the digestive system can get, leading to serious illnesses like cancer, diabetes, heart disease etc.  And how to rectify these imbalances by simply changing what you eat.

I’m a counsellor

I can talk, yes.  I like to tell stories.  But I can also listen.  I’m a great listener.  And I can put context and perspective to complex emotional issues – generally most are comfortable opening up to me.  I’m good at just being there, and encouraging people to dig deep and feel their way into their own solutions.  I favour lots of methods around this, but working on healing of limiting beliefs, muscle testing and astrology are all area’s I’m exploring.

I’m a teacher

Its come up time and time again, that I like to preach.  That just makes me tired.  I try not to do that anymore.  So if you want to know stuff you’ll have to ask.

I’m an educator

More on this later.  But have a few exciting plans up my sleeve for 2015!  They’re all inspired by my continual desire to create communities.

My purpose

I touched on my desire to serve earlier.  The area I’m called to – in fact, the area that people are called to me for…is spiritual awareness.  People literally find me, they fall into my path, to ask for assistance on how to become more conscious, to become more intuitive.  Usually I find that a strong calling to a path of light presents as  development of emotional or physical impairment (DIS-EASE – mind, body, soul).

People want guidance, and I’m fully invested in this on both a personal and global scale. I identify most with being a healer, which you might find confusing, but let me put this to you:

The ultimate expression of optimal health is discovered through the journey to enlightenment.

Kirsty Healey – Healer

 

A call to action – The rubber to the road.  The pedal to the metal.

How funny that I wrote the title to this blog a good couple of weeks ago with some half hearted article copied to it.  My last blog was on the 5th December, over 2 weeks ago, when I was feeling the overpowering feeling of unconditional love that accompanies enlightenment….but also it seemed…unlimited UNgrounding!!

It’s fair to say I continue to be tested.  I haven’t learned all my lessons – it doesn’t work like that.  Its a constant journey.  But this lesson had me up at 4am this morning working, dancing, blogging and loving the BVOM and the empowerment of mastering this lesson.

You are never alone if you truly love yourself

Ohhhh, just listened to this…love the synchronicity.. Alone – Heart.  Old school.

Article – Transitions – A Question of Soul

Our soul, our true self, is the most mysterious, essential, and magical dimension of our being. In fact, it is not a separate reality, as traditional Western thought views it, but the cohesive force that unites our body, heart, and mind. It is not a ghost trapped somehow in the physical machinery of our body but the very essence of our being. ~ G A B R I E L L E  R O T H

A transition is a life-altering event, and although the content will differ from person to person, the context is generally the same. A transition comes to shake up our lives, open and move us, and shift who we are being and becoming in the world. It comes to help us, reconnect us to a sense of wholeheartedness, return us to a state of resourcefulness, and redirect us to a whole new track or orientation in life.

As perhaps you can appreciate, a transition is a major experience that leaves us transformed, both inside and out. Transitions are not random events; they are orchestrated by a deeper intelligence to disrupt and also liberate our lives.

We could call this deep intelligence by several names: Life Force, Soul, Higher Self, Tao, Buddha Nature, and Christ Consciousness. “ere are many names, but when it comes down to it, the name does not matter; the important thing to remember is that we are more than this body, this personality, this collection of ego selves, this social identity. Soul operates on many planes of existence, and Earth is but one. It is as Master Jesus said, “In my Father’s House there are many rooms” (John 14:2).

Not all planes are as dense or as challenging as this one. Beyond this plane, the laws of time operate differently. Here, time is linear, but in the realm of soul, past, present, and future are not so distinct. “is is how soul can create synchronicities, which are events in the coming future. Soul can also set up current events to heal past karma. Soul is more powerful than we realize.

Transitions – A Question of Soul
In this world, soul is mostly misunderstood or goes unrecognized. When we come out of the birth canal, we forget we are light and start to live under the illusion that the body is all there is. “is then leads to the idea that without the physical body there would be no consciousness, no existence. ” This is not the case. We are sleepwalkers in this world, and a transition is there to remind us that our personality and body are not the center of the universe. “e body is impermanent, and one day its strength and beauty will pass away.

A transition comes to wake us up from our illusions and delusions. If we are worshiping false idols, then we are not honoring the light within. A transition is meant to open us to the realm of soul. A transition helps us experientially cultivate authenticity, a resilient spirit, a guiding sense of trust and faith, and a meaningful engagement with life. A transition reminds us that life is no mere set of routines. ” The soul is eternal, and it incarnates here on Earth to learn, celebrate, stretch, and grow. If we forget this, we lose our ability to smile, laugh, and cry.

Life can be hard, and most of us are taught to toughen up, hide our vulnerability, and get real. Our peers support us in achieving, chasing, and competing, or on the flip side, getting our needs met by shouting the loudest or playing painful victim games. We become used to putting on a brave face or trying to look good or maintain our cool. “is begins in childhood and kicks off in earnest during teenage years, when we are scrambling to find a new sense of acceptable identity in the world. (Adolescence is itself a major time of transition, which sets the scene for our adult years.)

Transition was once mainly a simple yet profound process of maturation. Living in the modern world is more complex. We are disconnected from our heart and inner light. Now, transition is both a maturation and an awakening process. We need to awaken to our integrity our authentic self, our inner light. When we are disconnected from who we truly are there is a loss of integrity, peace of mind, and courage. We believe what the media or governments are telling us, even though our heart says something different. Here is great peace of mind in feeling the connection to our inner light.

Integrity means not necessarily conforming to societal norms. We listen to others, and we trust our own path. “e word courage comes from the French word coeur, meaning ‘heart.’ Heart and soul are terms that often refer to the same essence. To live a soulful life is to live a courageous life. Soul is the essence of who we are. Our inner light creates a body to inhabit to live in and encounter certain experiences and lessons on the earthly plane. Our soul sets up challenges to meet and learn from. Some of these challenges originate in other lifetimes. Everything is meant to be a learning experience.

This is not to say that the earthly plane is part of some cosmic school. Learning is not meant to be serious and hard. Often, we learn the most when we are having fun and taking life lightly. Often, we learn the most when we are curious, engaged, focused, and purposeful. We learn the most when we feel loved and loving. The most powerful force in the universe is love, and when we are connected to our inner light we know this in blood and bone. Our inner light is part of the universal light. Love is a force that transforms everything.

A transition has much to teach us about love. Yet in this time frame, there is much fear and confusion about love and spirituality. There are so many ideas and belief systems and power games played with the realm of soul. This is because the earthly plane is passing through a time of great ignorance and darkness about spirituality. This is why so many feel confused about spirituality. The net result is that when we feel disconnected from soul we feel contracted, hardened, and afraid. Connection to soul is not a theoretical matter; it must be experienced in            the mind and body to be truly known.

A transition helps us break through our fearful, hardened heart so that we can feel and breath the light of spirit once again. Transitions are where life shifts in powerful and unexpected ways. A transition is defined by the dictionary as a ‘passage from one form, state, style or place to another.’ Implicit in this definition is a process of transformation. Transitions cause us to mature emotionally and mentally so that we can cope with living in a complex world. They involve a whole psychological process.

Transitions help us deconstruct a rigid and self-critical ego. Ego could also be called our personality. Our personality is really a gestalt of sub personality parts. Problems come when our ego is too small a container for our inner light. Our personality can deny or resist the inner light. This creates certain problems and shuts down experiences and inner abilities that would otherwise be made available.

When most people talk about the ego, they are usually referring to inner aspects that seek to keep us safe, contracted, and shut down. The ego was not designed to be closed and fearful. We are training it to be that way. A connected, happy, aware, and awake ego is not really a problem. We need an ego to contain our inner light. Ego is there for a purpose. The problem with ego is usually that it is just too anxious, closed, defended, armored, or rigid. The ego is taught to believe in dualistic paradigms of superiority/inferiority and worthiness/unworthiness. The ego is taught to believe that chasing and acquisition is the path to happiness. The ego is taught to believe in looking good. The ego is taught that real genius is cultivated within a Masters or PhD program rather than in the University of Life. The ego is taught to be independent/self-reliant or a whining victim/martyr. The ego is not something we can change through reading a book. The ego has to be transformed, and a radical set of life experiences is one way this can happen.

“When faced with a radical crisis, when the old way of being in the world, of interacting with each other and with the realm of nature doesn’t work anymore, when survival is threatened by seemingly insurmountable problems, an individual life-form — or a species — will either die or become extinct or rise above the limitations of its condition through an evolutionary leap. ~ E C K H A R T T O L L E

There is nothing obvious about transitions. They can sneak up on us without us realizing, and they can begin in strange ways and be accompanied by an odd undercurrent of tension. How we deal with this undercurrent of tension is all important as it determines the overall experience of the journey. A transition will strip away everything nonessential and help us question everything we know about ourselves and our place in the world; therefore, a transition is often confronting and challenging. It brings us face to face with our deepest dreams and our deepest wounds. Personal transitions help us dig deep within ourselves to find a renewed sense of inner light and purpose.

Transitions are both random and predictable. Once the journey starts, within a certain parameter anything can happen. The journey contains elements of chaos, uncertainty, and surprise. This is how is must be. We cannot control the journey, which means we have to find qualities such as faith and trust to successfully navigate the way ahead.

Transition is a soulful journey; it is also a heroic one (one that is far simpler than the many complex theories derived from Joseph Campbell’s original and innovative research and thinking on the mythological hero’s journey). The journey is soulful because it returns us to our original essence. The journey is heroic because it will push us into new experiences and it will open our hearts—and in some cases crack them open, revealing inner abilities, gifts, and talents that were previously dormant.

About the Author
Steve Nobel is known in the body, mind, spirit community in the UK as the founder of the hugely successful, London based non-profit centre for contemporary spiritual and personal development, Alternatives. Trained as a coach and NLP practitioner Nobel is a popular workshop and retreat leader as well as a sought after speaker. He also works at the London based College of Psychic Studies. For more information visit: http://www.stevenobel.com

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A few words – 1 year anniversary gathering

Some of you asked for a copy of the speech that Ma very generously and perfectly gave on my behalf at the unveiling today.   I was going to email it but since I haven’t posted for awhile, Kathy inspired me to turn it into a blog!  Cutting and pasting is so my style at the moment!

Unveiling speech Sat 20th Dec
Delivered by Ma, on behalf of me

Hi to everyone from the concrete jungle of LA.  A lot  of you will be disappointed and maybe a little annoyed that I’m not there.  This is of course, to be expected…because I’m super cool!

This wasn’t a decision made lightly by me.  It means the world to me that you’re all there today commemorating Scotty’s life….that a lot of you came solely to support me.  I’m blessed and grateful to have such amazing people in my life.

Connection has been a recurring theme for me since the start of my journey and all I ask of you today is to take a moment and feel what that means to you.  For me its everything.  Without it we are less than conscious.  We are less than human.  We are robots….living in the Matrix.

I encourage you all to embrace and appreciate and support each other  today as you think about Scotty..and as you think about me.   Because the most powerful thing you can do for me today is to feel and experience the love that’s being shared.   Please send some to me!!!   This concrete jungle needs it!!!

In my eulogy last year I said that I would live the rest of my life with no regrets like Scotty did.  And that is what I’m doing now. I’m doing exactly what he would do and what he would expect of me .  And a part of me feels that he lives on vicariously through me.  That’s the crazy,   spontaneous. .fly by the seat of my pants. .say inconsiderate things and make girls cry part of me!!!

He’s there with you all today. .just as he’s here with me..just as he’s with Pauline. .just as he’s with Uncle Peter in heaven.  He’s looking down  on us sending unconditional love,  a huge shield of protection. ..and…. I’m hoping  also..Abundance..Health, and Peace for 2015.

I wanted to mention that my  reason for not making it there is family.

We all have blood family. .but then we also have the people that we adopt in that mean the world to us…the brothers from another mother. …you know what I mean.  I would do anything for my family.  I would do anything for any of you if you asked.   This is who I am.  Its kind of my life purpose to be of service and I look forward to sharing that vision  with all of you soon.  In the meantime… .know that we are all one big crazy collective family pulled together by one amazing man.

I love him. And today I miss him.   I miss him so much that my bones hurt.  But it will be fleeting.

Because its time for us to remember the good times….to move on and take a little piece of inspiration from his life. .so he didn’t die in vain…

I’d like you to take 1 minute of silence now and think of what that looks like for you.  How will you change something in your life next year to reflect him. .to honor him. ..

I’d also ask that today we acknowledge Peter Knapp. .(Scott’s Uncle who meant the world to Scott). .and send a bit of love to Margaret and family.

But most importantly. ..while Scotty and Peter have passed. …there are people that are hurting right now, living, breathing family, that require our support.. Can I ask you all to send some love and light to Allister, Paola, Natalya and Vivienne in their hour of need.

Thank you all for making the effort to be here today. .you are all in my heart.  Scotty is ecstatic. ..I can see him having his own 30 second dance party in the clouds. ..chest puffed out…cocky. .confident. ..wooing the girl angels with his charm. .totally getting away with all sorts of shit up there. ..that’s my man!!

I’ll see you all soon. .!!  Please get in contact with me on my whereabouts. .I’m going to be around NZ at least until the end of January!  Oohhhhh and have a 1/2 glass of wine for me..and a couple bottles for Scott..it would be rude not  to…

He acknowledges each and every one of you and sends you love and healing and the courage to see endless possibilities. 😘😘😘😘😘

The ecstacy of surrender – finding Twin flames

I have loads of friends and acquaintances who are searching for love.  I want to put a little something out there for all of you, with love from me xxxx.

Typically I resist the American framework of dating when it comes to meeting your special someone.   I detest the structure and rules that accompany this strategy.

Have you seen the movie,   ‘How to lose a guy in 10 days’?

It stars Kate Hudson and Matthew McConnaughy.  I love to look at both these beautiful actors so it’s an instant draw.  Kate plays Andie, a ‘How to…’ column writer for a magazine who is putting her body on the line researching her article on how to lose a guy, and Ben, an advertising executive,  makes a bet that he can make any girl fall in love with him.

I love this movie because no matter what these morons do,  they can’t deny their connection.   The universe just keeps pulling them back together until they eventually yeild.

I’ve put together 4 tips for finding and recognising your Twin flame…this is powerful life changing stuff..so prepare yourself!

1 Be on your path
2 Ask for what you want
3 Listen to your body
4 Surrender

1. Be on your path
If you’re searching for love at the moment,  it will be more powerful if you’re on your aligned path first.  Your chances of striking the jackpot increase exponentially.  However, its true that in many instances people have been hopelessly moving in the wrong direction,  only to be saved by their Soulmates falling into their path and magically changing their lives around.  I’m reiterating that being on your path is necessary anyway. .its for your highest good.

I can’t stress how important it is that you feel excited about the path you’ve chosen.  You’ll know its the right path by the excitement in your belly, the breadcrumbs the universe sends you, the ease that you’ll fly through life,  the constant feeling of love and happiness and an overall feeling of rightness.

2. Ask for what you want
I’ve talked about ‘The secret – the law of attraction’  before.  The book is much better than the movie by the way.   I would think of this book kind of like a bible for those of you out there that aren’t religious.  It teaches us how to ask for what we want, to create the life we ask for.  It’s powerful.   One of the girls from my course described how she literally had to put the brakes on everything she was getting by asking for balance..she was getting everything she asked for and her world seemed to be tipping over. .she had too much and she didn’t have time to process any of it.

You can have this.  Anyone can have this.   Ask for what you want.   Take time every day.   Form affirmations.  Form intentions.  Ask the universe to provide.   If you want to turbo charge your request,  ask your angels for assistance.

3. Listen to your body. It does not lie.
I’d like to advocate for monogamous relationships, but the truth is that 70% of the relationships in existence are bullshit.  So its no surprise to me that people find Soulmates through affairs.  My advice here is don’t hide away in one of those comfortable relationships pretending that you’re ok with it.  Make space in your life for that someone that’s going to arrive..feather your nest.  Have an expectation that they’re going to turn up.

If you want truth,  listen to your body.   It does not lie.   It will signal to you when you’ve met someone you need to pursue..pay attention!

4. Surrender
Give away your old ideals of what your soulmate will look like,  how much money they’ll earn and suchlike.   This is social conformation at its worst.  We’re thinking. .living in ego when we pander to these ideals.   Sure you can ask for a tall dark and handsome hubby, but is that what you really want?   Don’t forget to ask for the important stuff.

Connection, unconditional love, attraction, passion, shared ideals,  similar life paths…once you have these things. .just like the movies, nothing else matters. .the rest of the details are insignificant.

You choose your soulmate with your heart,  not your head.   It pays not to over analyse. .feel your way. ..

In summary
By being on your path, honing your intuition and trusting the process, love will literally fall in your lap.  Poni-corn Guarantee!

More importantly,  I hope you’ve realised that my 4 laws are universal laws for getting what you want, they don’t just apply to finding your prefect match.

If you can master them, you’ll be on your way to having everything you desire and more!

How Surrender Can Help You Attract Your Soul Mate

by Judith Orloff MD

In my new book, The Ecstasy of Surrender I define a soul mate as a fated romantic relationship with someone to whom you feel a special affinity. You fall in love with and support each other’s souls as well as their bodies. The relationship is never denigrating, abusive, or based on narcissism or control. When you meet, something in you awakens, even rejoices. You can finally breathe. The wait is over–you’re home again.

However, contrary to what you may think, a soul mate isn’t necessarily some ideal person who will make your life perfect or cure your loneliness. Nor do you have to always like each other or agree. But he or she will help you evolve. You’ll learn from one another. There is no deadline for a soul mate. One can arrive when you’re twenty or eighty, whenever the time is right. Sexual attraction is part of the bond though this may vary in different phases of life. Some of these relationships are incredibly smooth, whereas most have more challenges. However, with soul mates, two are stronger than one. You make each other better.

What should you look for in a soul mate? How can you know you’ve met yours? To avoid missing out on these relationships, you must let go of unrealistic expectations. Here’s a summary of some fundamental qualities that define what a soul mate is and isn’t. Though the intensity of these may vary in different phases of your lives, they form the basis of your bond.

How to Identify Your Soul Mate
What a soul mate relationship is:

– You feel a strong connection, comfort, and sense of familiarity
– There’s a physical attraction
– You share mutual love, commitment, and support
– You “get” each other; you’re each other’s biggest fans
– You are emotional mirrors and teachers for each other
– You’re in synch, even telepathic
– You’re willing to work through conflicts, compromise, and surrender unhealthy patterns to improve the relationship

What a soul mate relationship isn’t:

– All about you (or all about your partner)
– Lukewarm, boring, or noncommittal
– Forced or merely a “good idea”
– Based on abuse, control, or rigidity
– Only physical attraction or the sense of “lightning striking”
– The “answer to all your problems” or always conflict-free
– Based on “settling,” being together for convenience, or out of a fear of being alone, breaking up, or change

Whether a soul mate lasts forever, these relationships are transformative and provide a goldmine of lessons. They bring you face-to-face with aspects of your masculine and feminine sides that you desire to integrate. Marriage, which is a civil agreement, doesn’t require that you be with a soul mate. So, if it happens that your spouse isn’t one, or if you always stay single, there are still numerous benefits and much love that is possible. I’m not saying it’s necessarily better or worse to find a soul mate. The level of connection is just different. One thing I am sure of: each of our paths is uniquely perfect. Life presents us with what we need to grow. In this sense, a soul mate may not be appropriate or essential for everyone, as much as the heart may long for one.

Moreover, you can’t force one to arrive or demand that the universe deliver one. I guarantee: that won’t work. This is where surrender is key. It’s a fine balance. You must clarify what qualities you desire in someone, then surrender expectations. Paradoxically, the “letting go” part is what most increases the likelihood of results. Being too hungry or fixated on finding a mate can backfire by acting as a death grip that stifles flow. To manifest a goal, you must always hold it lightly so you don’t inadvertently sabotage yourself by clamping down.

There are clear ways to hone your intuitive focus to make it more possible for your soul mate to materialize. Here is an exercise to do from The Ecstasy of Surrender.

Invite Your Soul Mate In
Surrender into action by setting the stage for a soul mate, then notice the signs that he or she has arrived.

1. Make a wish list

Spend some quiet time picturing the qualities you most desire in a mate. Ask yourself: What would truly be good for me? What do I need? Intelligence? Kindness? Support? Chemistry? Wants children? Good communication skills? Is he or she spiritually connected? Also make a list of traits that are unacceptable to you such as being self-absorbed or rigid. Everyone’s needs are different.

2. Release Expectations

Think of your list as a letter to spirit. You’ve put in your soul mate requests. No need to keep re-sending the letter. Now, let the list go. Hold your desires lightly in your heart but don’t push. Have faith that you’ve been heard.

3. Listen to Intuition

Pay attention to intuitive signs that you’ve met someone of interest, even if he or she isn’t “your type.” These are: A sudden wave of chills, a gut feeling of attraction, or a flash of insight that this person may be right for you. Also stay aware of intuitions such as a sick feeling in your gut or a sense of distrust that warns, “Danger. Bad news. Stay away.” These will protect you from unhealthy relationships.

4. Be aware of synchronicities and déjà vu

Synchronicities are moments of perfect timing when paths effortlessly interconnect. You sit next to someone in a movie who turns out to be your soul mate. Or, out of the blue, you have a chance to go to Paris where you meet The One. Also, notice when you have a sense of déjà vu–as if you’ve known each other before. If this occurs with a stranger, say in the market, act on the situation by smiling and making eye contact. Then strike up a conversation such as asking for directions.

This article was adapted from The Ecstasy of Surrender: 12 Surprising Ways Letting Go Can Empower Your Life, Harmony Books, 2014 by Judith Orloff MD.

Love never felt so good

Yesterday, everything changed.

My mentor and dear friend Jehanne gave me a piece of advice that has become a daily guidance…a way of being:

Let life unfold

Since I’ve been in Bali I’ve been running myself ragged.  I’ve been running from workshops to healing sessions, to school, then out late every night with friends.  All of my sessions have added a piece to the puzzle.  However if I were to feel into what has bought me closer to my quest,  there are 2 sessions that have literally changed my life.  One of them was an ozone treatment with my talented friend Barni.  The other my session yesterday with Tino.

I could never discount my other sessions by simply comparing them to these 2. But perhaps I can give you an insight into the significance of the feeling attached. This is what I said to my friend after she asked how my session was:

“I’ve just had one of those experiences that change and shape the fabric of your life”

………Scotty came to my session with Tino yesterday.  He came to bathe me in love and light.   It was a heart breaking, beautiful session.  He’s always watching over me.  He says he doesn’t visit because he doesn’t want to make me sadder than I am….

Tino is many things…a psychic, healer, shamen and bodyworker.  He saves people.

Tino’s session was physically and emotionally painful.  But it felt so right.
His expertise lies in releasing emotions trapped in the body, emotions that have manifested themselves in physical illness.  He unlocks the energy.   He disperses it by…belching..yeap..he burps it out..just like John Coffey in the movie Green Mile..you know the movie with Tom Hanks??  It’s so surreal. .

He did a lot of work with me around getting me out of my head and into my heart…also unlocking my throat chakra.   He was asking me to let it go.  I knew I had to let it go.   I could feel it in my body,  but I didn’t know how.  Because I was thinking.   Not feeling.  It’s my natural, comfortable state of being to revert back to ego rather than face being vulnerable.

Everything has changed for the better.

My sentient abilities have a little offshoot that you might have read about yesterday. .I’m also an empath.   Basically I feel others emotions.   I’ve experienced this ability to its full extent, twice now.  Both emergency situations.  Both scared the shit out of me and made me feel crazy, volatile.

However, recently I’ve begun to ‘settle into’ these abilities and much more beautiful experiences have occurred.  Recently,  whenever I think about a friend and her newly acquainted love interest, I feel her love for him and love songs pop into my head that I’m compelled to pass on.

This is of course a reflection of my hearts desire.  I want everyone to have what Scotty and I had.   I want them to experience what we felt.

This post is a pivotal post for me.  Many of you don’t understand my quest..what drives me to exhaustion.  Chris helped me to understand this concept properly:

Mastery of Mind, Body and Spirit

One of the questions I ask all of my mentors regularly is, ‘ What do I need to do right now to develop myself today?  Tino asked me to simply feel my way..heart over head…

With that in mind I’m going to step out of my brain and into my heart and share with you the first song that Scotty ever gave to me.

In my quest for mastery I went searching far and wide.  Yes I’ve found answers.  Yes I’ve found tools.  That information is serving to help me unlock the secrets I’ve been carrying with me all along.

I’ll tell you another little secret. .

What you have right now in this moment is perfect, beautiful, and can become everything that you want it to be. It simply takes some effort, some communication, and a whole lotta’ love!

I invite you to take a day where you simply go where your heart leads you.  Strengthen your intuition.  Follow the breadcrumbs.

Let life unfold.

A song for you:  Maybe this song will describe the ‘place’ I go to sometimes.  It used to be all the time.  Now its just sometimes.   But whenever Inna & I go to Shisha and listen to our fav singer Justine…this is always a mandatory ‘dance or you’re fired’ song.

A video for you:   I like to think of it as Love in Motion.  It is simply beautiful, and stands as a testament to what everyone can create when they are full of passion about what they love doing, and who they love doing it with 🙂

References:
How to know if you’re in a Spiritual partnership

How to protect yourself as an empath